- 6 years ago
In the past few weeks, I think it’s safe to say that my boyfriend has been thinking of proposing:
-He’s asked me about my ring size
-He’s asked about how I would like to be proposed to
-He’s made a point to “kick me out” of the room to talk to his parents in privacy
Of note, my boyfriend and I and his family are going on a vacation next month. A couple of weeks ago, I was sitting next to him and he was going to show me something on his phone. When he pulled up the internet, I’m 99% sure the title of the webpage said “Proposals in XYZ City.” He quickly closed the page and I pretended I didn’t see it. The “XZY City” was actually the city that we will be vacationing in next month.
Needless to say, I’ve mentally psyched myself up for the proposal to happen sometime next month during the vacation. However, there’s the chance that he won’t propose during that time for whatever reason. I’m being honest with myself by acknowledging that I will be disappointed if it doesn’t happen and I know that I’ll be moody/grouchy/pissed afterwards if it doesn’t happen. I won’t be able to tell my boyfriend why I’m feeling like that because he’s usually very perceptive to my moods and is going to pick up on my unhappiness right away. I tend to get like that when I psyche myself up for something and then it ends up not happenening. But it’s too late now, because I’m already expecting the proposal.
I need to fix my mindset to be prepared that he might not propose then and that it won’t be the end of the world and that he’ll still love me. But I don’t know how and I’m hoping you all can help!