- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
So, I’m working hard to overcome my insecurities and I have to say that I am definitely happy about becoming engaged in the near-future. He’s told me he definitely has a ring in mind and he knows where he’s going to get it. The most I could get out of him was that the store had an “E” in its name… Because that really narrows it down. And his reponse was, “Well, you’ll know in a few weeks.” Gasp.
Now I’m trying to let it lie. The truth is, I know deep down that I *do* want to be surprised but the anticipation is really hard. I think of how we’ll share the news with our friends, I wonder how he’ll actually propose, and I wonder how I’ll react when the time comes. It’s very exciting and, like I think many of you, it preoccupies my thoughts. We think of finding love and now we’re on the edge of our seats with a glimpse of forever.
I read Mr. Bee’s pact and I do like it. I want to adopt some of it. But it’s difficult and let me know if you think my reason might be one of yours:
My future fiance is one of my best friends and I want nothing more than to tell my best friend how I’m feeling, about my excitement, about my worries, about my joy. We just talk a lot about everything. And so to be mum on this issue is really tough. But I can’t have the “I wonder what he’s going to do!” conversation with HIM.
That’s why I’m really grateful to have found this forum and I’ve found so many stories that are similar to mine and it’s a great thing.
Now, I do have my giflfriends, but I know that some of them are romantics at heart and simultaneously single or recently have broken up and so as much I know they would be completely happy talking about this… It feels less than right. Do some of you experience that feeling too?
Then, there’s the feeling that it isn’t real until it happens… I value my relationship right now, as it is, on its own merits. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be happy to be getting engaged. But there is something about an engagement, then a wedding. It obviously means something.
Blah, okay, now I’m rambling. Anyone can feel free to ramble back.