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have you deleted this application? it doesn't seem healthy for you, as someone slightly paranoid because you've been cheated on before, which is maybe sort-of understandable.
but you need to let go. he is not your ex. they are completely separate people. trust your so.
Whoa, you Lo Jacked your bf?!
I think some counseling is in order to help you get past this insecurity; it's clearly causing you & your man a lot of problems.
This just goes to show that COMMUNICATION is the #1 most important thing in a relationship. If you had talked more openly about things - instead of jumping to conculsions and into your car, and if he had communicated his resntment - instead of silently stewing, you guys wouldn't be in this position. Communicate, communicate, communicate. It isn't about who is right/who is wrong, it's about making sure you clearly understand one another.
@kitzy: Oh absolutely! It was gone the day after that. And you are right. He has given me no reason what so ever to think he's cheating or being dishonest. He was raised better than that and he is a truly good hearted man who I believe would never intentionally hurt me.
@sassy411: I'm not 100% sure what you mean by Lo Jacking.. but the main reason we did this is because he would get home anywhere from 6 - 7:30 pm depending and I never knew when to start dinner. So this just prevented me from having to call him while he was driving.
@crayfish: You couldn't be more right. It felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders that night. We talked about so many things, not only this issue. We also talked about his lack of affection and my tendency to withdrawal. It was so productive, I'm really proud of us and it's def steps in the right direction.
Read Beth Moore's book "So long Insecurity" It's in a Christian bookstore and it's a good book (even though I have yet to finish 1/2 of it.)
But you do need to know that Trust goes both ways and for a guy it's like a stab in the heart. However, he should be reassuring you it won't happen with him! It's hard to go past but one day you can and when you do...it's a wonderful feeling! Not all men are cheaters.
@yearns4god: Thank you for the book recommendation! I am definitely a book worm (and even listen to books on CD in my car sometimes hehe) You are absolutely right that trust goes both ways, and I just didn't come to grips with how much it really must've hurt him until now.
I sympathize with you! Before my husband, I was in a relationship where I was constantly cheated on and manipulated. When DH and I first got together I was constantly worried that he would cheat but it finally got through my thick head what a good guy he was. Congratulations on talking to your SO and laying all the cards out on the table. It's so great that you've done some of that before marriage because it will be so helpful when you finally do get engaged/married.
If you are referring to the Google Latitude app, that just gives you an approximate location where they are. It doesn't give you exactly, that way you can't stalk the person. When FI and I put that app on we would be sitting next to each other, but it had us miles apart on the app.
@Treasure43: Thank you for the positive reinforcement!!! :) It was pretty tough to realize not every guy is like my ex. I've definitely come a very, very long way in the past 7 months!! I just feel better now than ever about us and the road we're on... and also about myself.
@megan215: I do think that was it, it sounds familiar.. Honestly, it's been so long and I've definitely tried to put that night behind me! It had just been uncannily accurate so many times, I couldn't figure out why it was directly over this random house that one night. I'm just glad it's over and cleared up, that's for sure.
You know what? Don't be so hard on yourself! It happens to the best of us. Eventually you will find your ground and it will get easier. Just keep going with how confident you feel in the relationship 
@VikingPrincess: couldn't have said it better myself. hubs and I had both been cheated on in past relationships, so we both had the trust issues. But we talked and talked and talked, and any time either of us had a doubt we would talk some more. Eventually, there was on doubt. It seems like your bf is doing all he can to understand from a standpoint of never having gone through this, and I applaud him that. But, my advice - trust him fully (as soon as you get a crazy thought in your mind, occupy yourself immediately, or talk yourself down, whatever you have to do) until/if he ever gives you a reason to not. Soon enough, it will come naturally. Now, we never don't trust each other. The only time I get worried if he doesn't answer or call/text me back in a while is if he got hurt at work (he's a mechanic).
It's rough, girl. I was also cheated on a number of times in my past relationships (yes, that's plural) so trust doesn't come easy to me. Fortunately my FI has also been cheated on in the past (well, not fortunately, but you know what I mean) so we both know where the other is coming from with respect to trust.
It's a work in process and will remain that way for a long, long time for sure. I'm glad you're making strides and hope you'll continue to do so. :)
A friend at works has this application so she can watch her hubby driving him, as he commutes almost 2 hours to work everyday. For them it is a safety feature more than anything, should something happen to him, but it also fun for the kids to watch their dad head towards their house.
I don't think you reacted any other way than a lot of people would have. Being that you have been cheated on in the past, it is understandable that you would react this way. I can almost certainly say I would have responded the same way, just maybe not as far as telling him to pack his things. All you can do is pour your heart out to him, and explain why you reacted the way you did, and how you are doing everything possible to work on the issues you have gone through in the past.
I really hope things work out for you, and I am sure it will.
I think in alot of ways this was a good thing. In the end, it has opened communication, you both had to self reflect and look at your relationship. I think in the long run this has probably saved your relationship.
FI and I went through something similar, which did save our relationship. I had an accident about 20 onths ago that really changed my life, our life. In not knowing how to handle this, we were drifting apart, without noticing it. A jolt to our relationship (neither cheated, overheard a conversation and didn't hear whole thing) made me freak and in talking aired out how we both were feeling. It has been such a great ting, it's better than before!!
Good Luck!
Wow! Thank you everyone for these responses.. I hadn't checked my post for a few days and let me tell you this made my DAY :D
Things have still been amazing with us. We've changed, I can just feel it.
@mrstobeeisme: I think you are right -- I really do. That conversation, to me, really saved us and changed us both for the better. Thank you for sharing your story :)
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I've known why for a couple of weeks now, and having it out in the open seems to have changed our relationship. Both of us have been a lot happier, and we've both been putting forth 10x more effort to each other and to US than we have in a very, very long time.
So.... back up 7 months. He is on the road a lot for work so he downloaded a Blackberry app that let me know where his location was from the computer (that way I wasn't calling him all the time LOL). It was 100% right, 100% of the time. It would even let me know if he "stayed" somewhere, like if he was at a buddies house the little icon would stay over the place for as long as he was there (I mean I could literally see the house on Google maps!). All was fine and dandy... I wasn't obsessive, it was just something fun to check :)
Well, one night I happen to check it and he's at some random house in a subdivision south of town I'd never been to. 5...10.. minutes later and it still showed him at this house. I called him to ask where he was and he said he was just about to get into town. Hm... Did I think to be rational? Hell no. I am an extremely emotional person whose last relationship involved multiple instances of being cheated on. Those two factors together made for an irrational reaction.
I packed up both dogs in the car and drove to this house he was at. As soon as I was about to drive by the house he called b/c he'd gotten home and I wasn't there.
A ridiculous, emotion-filled series of phone calls ensued. I told him I wanted his stuff packed. He called my mom and his mom, they both called me. It was awful. Truly awful. He cried, I cried. I couldn't figure out how this one time it was wrong..I saw it with my own two eyes and it had been 100% accurate every other time! I also couldn't figure out how he could be silly enough to leave the GPS thing on!
Looking back, I realized I was almost conditioned to behave like that. I knew nothing else than that erratic behavior for 2 years. In my eyes, I was going through the same thing as I had been dealing with for 2 yrs with my ex.
Well, the next day while he was at home we both checked it and it showed him in the middle of a cornfield 3 miles away. I couldn't have felt like a bigger jackass.
So that's it. That is the solitary reason he didn't propose this summer. I had no idea it affected him as much as it did. He just wants to be sure it will never happen again and that I can trust him completely. We have had a couple of phone incidents since then with me snooping and I know I need to knock that off. I've actually kept myself from doing it several times in the past month or so :) I have also really been trying hard to gain control over my emotions and to not be a freaking slave to them any longer. I was so afraid for so long that if I ignored my emotions, it was as if they did not exist. Well, that is definitely a destructive way to think sometimes. Some emotions NEED to be ignored for a healthy existence.
We had a long conversation and I told him I feel like I've been harboring some resentment towards him because he promised and promised a summertime proposal. He said that was unfair, which it is.. but then again, I never knew there was a reason it hadn't happened, I just thought it hadn't.
So all in all, I guess we're okay :) I am a little down because I don't expect a proposal any time soon, but I'm really glad we were able to have a sit down conversation and really get down to the nitty gritty. It was great for us!