Post # 1
64 days till my wedding. I’m living with the love of my life. Why can’t I stop dwelling on the negative. Tried on my wedding dress on tuesday, my mother says I should lose five pound between now and my first fitting next week. I work out four times a week, and have been eatting right but havent shifted a ounce. I hate my job right now. I get paid nothing and work twice as hard as everyone else in my classroom. I feel like I wasted four years getting my BA just to work this job. No one is hiring anywhere. I cry at the drop of a hat. Like today when FI said something about pans not being put away right in the kicthen. Its just crazy I’ve bin doing so much better with my depression and anexiety lately why is this all surfaceing now.
Thanks for reading just needed to get this out of my system.
Post # 3
I’m sorry. This is what is great about weddingbee, you can come here and vent all your frustrations. I’m sorry you are going through all of this and I hope it gets better. With the wedding soon approaching, our stress levels get out of control. Is there something you can do for yourself at any time of the day that can help you unwind alittle bit to help you feel better? Even that little bit of extra me time can help alot!
Post # 4
*Big squishy hug*!!
As to your mum, tell her to lose 5 pounds! Honestly! What a thing to say. In regards to the job and the schooling.. think of it this way, everything you’ve done and everywhere you’ve been has brought you to a point where are you marrying the love of your life. So none of it has been a waste! All of it has been part of your journey. When you find yourself overwhelmed about all the things that make you unhappy, stop looking at the big picture. Focus on one thing at a time, and one thing that either makes you happy, or something that you can change. When you start looking at all your little achievements, you’ll start to feel better!
But it is an emotional time for you., which is why you’re more vulnerable right now! And remember, all of us bees are here for you. My mum always told me, express, don’t repress, so let it out! And most importantly, don’t beat your self up over your emotions.