- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
When I first got engaged I was so excited and couldn’t wait to start planning. Then…dun dun dun…everything fell apart. The venue that we thought was the right choice gave us the run around for three months and now we have to start all over. The photographer that is supposed to do our engagement photos in nine days isn’t returning my calls or emails. The jeweler that custom designed my wedding band messed it up and blamed it on me that I didn’t tell him exactly what I wanted. So now I have no venue, no photographer, no ring, no plans, blah, blah, blah.
I feel like nothing is going right and no one is on my side. My fiancé is getting frustrated with the whole situation. His family lives in another state and he said he doesn’t talk to most of them and doesn’t really care if many of them come. We are adamant about not having kids at the wedding and his mom has “overruled” that decision and has told his cousin that it will be fine to just bring her baby. Also, he was engaged once before so he has been through this process once and I think is losing patience or just doesn’t want to deal with it a second time which is very upsetting to me. After going through the guest list for my side I found that there were about 37 people that I could easily eliminate from the list for one reason or another. I have lost touch with many friends through the years and I really only have three friends. It’s almost enough to just say let’s have a Destination Wedding and whoever comes comes.
I brought up an engagement party to a few people (family and friends) and was basically told “you don’t really need an engagement party”. This has been a pretty big year for me. I bought a house and graduated from college. I had a combo grad/housewarming party in June and also got engaged in June. So basically since I had the grad/housewarming party there is no need for an engagement party according to these friends and family members.
I always dreamed of this big fun wedding before I was engaged. But now that the time has come to plan one I can’t even come up with a list of 100 people that I couldn’t imagine not having at my wedding.
I put on a happy face every day but sometimes I just break down and cry and half the time I don’t even know what I’m crying about. I just feel so overwhelmed with this entire process and I don’t feel like I have anyone to talk to because they don’t understand or just don’t have time for it. I’ve tried to talk to a few people and I just get “don’t worry, everything will work out”. But it’s hard to believe that when everything is going wrong.
Am I the only one feeling this way?