- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
I don’t know if any of you bee’s ever feel like just throwing in the towel and saying F.U. to the entire world.
I am on one, and I have been on one for days now. But I have just had enough!
I work, I work usually 70 hours a week. So it doesn’t leave a lot of time for anything else but sleep. But I do my best to keep up with everything, but sometimes things slip through the cracks.
But here is the list of things that are really pissing me off or causing me emotional distress.
My son and his GF (ex GF, fiance, what ever she is now) cannot seem to get it together. They just had a baby in August of 2012, and since he won’t marry her she is being difficult with the baby. And it has been since Christmas now that I have seen my grand daughter. I want to see my grand baby, and I am tired of being held hostage because these kids don’t get it!!
My fiance spends money on stupid shit. He buys a truck, that doesn’t run, and doesn’t know if it will run. We are on a very tight budget right now…..and I cannot see the reason for wasitng money on stupid shit. I point this out…….and then I am made to feel like a jackass for even bringing it up.
I have a daughter who graduates in 4 months from high school. I need to buy her all of her stuff for graduation, prom, and a car. Part of the reason I am so pissed about spending money on stupid shit.
My employer brings in help from out of town to cover our shortages. But gives all of the money work to the farmed out help. Leaving us (the regualar employees) with scraps. Again I am on a really tight budget here, and I need to make money. Then the icicng on the cake, for 2 pay periods now, I have either been severely shorted if not paid at all for work done. Which really pisses me off because I have bills to pay, and I am on a very tight budget!
I don’t feel like I am getting married on some days. I feel like I am climbing this mountain that is 500 miles high dragging everyone else behind me. I am tired. I am irritated. And I am really sick of having to deal with all of this stuff. I feel like I am not allowed to have ANYTHING for myself, and that I am going to be forever dragging myself up this hill……with no help from anyone!!
Is it just me? Am I being selfish? I am just tired of everyone else being so rude and inconsiderate. Thanks for listening!