- 8 years ago
- Wedding: July 2010
So I went to bed well before he got home last night, and unfortunately woke up when I heard him walk in at 10:50.
He did not come in and kiss me on the cheek like he usually does (and did the previous night, even though we had been fighting).That stung a little, but it told me that yes, he is still angry.
I stayed in bed till I had to get up and go to the bathroom.
After the bathroom, I stopped at the couch and said, “Hi honey.”
He said, “What’s up?” (He’s never in our relationship said ‘what’s up?’ to me.)
I said, “Glad you’re home safe. Good night.” Gave him a kiss on the cheek, went back to bed.
He slept on the couch again. That also stung, but I know he needs space.
I just got up, came to the living room/kitchen area (it’s small apartment), he woke up and said, “Any school closing announcements?” (It’s snowing.)
I said, “I don’t know.” I made my coffee. He went into the bedroom and went back to sleep.
I know it’s only been a day and into the next morning, but we’ve never gone this long like this. And he’s never slept on the couch.
I have to be strong. I know some of you may think I’m pathetic for feeling like I “need to win him back” or “need to save this relationship,” but that’s how I feel. And I know I won’t let him know I’m feeling this needy. I am respecting his need for space.
It is just really hurting. Gotta breathe, and just hope and pray that it gets better.