- 3 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
Something happened last night that made me realize that the whole TTC process isn’t just stressful on us ladies, but it’s not easy for our guys either.
Just as we were falling asleep last night, DH says to me “Are you still going to love me if I can’t get you pregnant?” I don’t think he was totally serious, but it’s on his mind if he’s asking. Made my heart melt and I reassured him that I would very much still love him if we can’t get pregnant. We’ve previously talked about adoption, maybe even instead of having our own, but decided to give this a try first and if it doesn’t happen, we’ll look more closely into adoption. Adoption is already on the table, so I’m not totally sure why he’s insecure about this.
We’re only on cycle two of TTC. Plus, we’re mostly NTNP. I realize that this could take many months to get pregnant and I’m genuinely ok with that. I think he was more disappointed that I was last month when AF showed up, but I also think he thought that this was going to be easy and now that I’m off BC, it would just happen.
We talk about TTC and ‘when’ we have a baby, but it’s not the main topic of conversation in our house. It’s not like this is all I talk about – AT ALL.
I just feel bad and I’m afraid that I’m doing or saying something that makes him think that I’m more interested in a baby than in him.