Post # 1
I want to start by saying that I know some couples have longer journeys and more problems, but I just want to cry every time I think about our TTC journey so far and I could really use some encouragement.
Short story – we’ve been trying since the end of January, and I’ve only had 2 or 3 “normal” cycles since then (although I may never have ovulated – never got a postive OPK; only got a temp surge once). Now I’ve been put back on bc for 1 month to keep me from bleeding. I was prescribed Clomid over 2 months ago, but haven’t got to take it yet because of all my issues later.
Long/TMI story – The last few months have been hell. In August, I bled for 25 days before I got put on Provera. Then in September, my Day 21 test showed that I didn’t ovulate (even though all my other sonograms and blood tests have come back normal). My next period was 2 weeks late and so heavy that I actually ended up in the emergency room around Day 7 for low blood count. I went back on Provera and I’m still recovering from that (my blood count dropped to half of what I usually test at and I had severe anemia). Now they want to make sure I don’t bleed for awhile so I can recover, so I’m back on bc only 10-11 months after stopping it to TTC.
If all goes well, I’ll be able to have a normal cycle, take Clomid, and (fx) conceive next cycle (December). I just feel like I’m broken… and that we’ll never had a baby.
Post # 2
LadyBear: Oh, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I would too in your situation! I hope things go as planned and you get to TTC successfully in December! I’ll be there TTC with you that month as well. I can’t imagine how stressful and sad all this has made you feel. All I can say is trust your Drs. and try to stay positive for your health.
Post # 3
LadyBear: Oh gosh I am sending the biggest internet hug your way. I can’t even imagine having your cycle so messed up and having to wait and see when it’ll ever end, IF you’ll ovulate, etc. Hell, I bitch about waiting the whole 16-20 days it usually takes for my body to ovulate, and then I bitch about the 12 day wait for my period to show up. I can see now that I should just be thankful and stop bitching!
Do they know what is causing all of the issues?
This “journey” is not fair that it’s so easy for some and SO f*cking hard for others. Maybe those of us who are challenged will turn out to be the most amazing mommies because we really, really, really had to work for what we wanted, and we really had to have patience!!!! FX for you
Post # 4
- Wedding: April 2014 - Italian Villa
LadyBear: 10,000,000 hugs!
We haven’t TTC, so I can’t even begin to fathom how you’re feeling. But do know, you are most definitely not alone, and we all feel for you.
When starting TTC, we never know if we will have an easy journey or a difficult one, but in any situation, I feel that the more difficult journey results in deeper appreciation. I know that isn’t comforting, but I doubt anything we could say would be.
Post # 5
LadyBear: I’m so sorry you’re going through that! When I was younger I had periods sort of like that so I know how much it sucks. My hemoglobin was low enough for a blood transfusion before they put me on tons of iron and BC. That’s why I was put on BCP, even though it was a long time ago. Were your periods like that before beginning BCP?
Post # 7
- Wedding: October 2011 - Bed & Breakfast
Oh my goodness, what a sucktastic experience you must be having. I’m so sorry you are going through this. *hugs* Have the doctors offered any theories on why your body is so wacky right now?
Post # 8
kes18: I was originally put on BC for these types of issues, but I was 18 and didn’t really care – birth control was an easy fix and I just kind of forgot about it. My mom had similar problems when she was a teen, but then had 3 kids very quickly after she got married, so I (wrongly) assumed that would happen for me, too.
lovekiss: Nope. My doc says it HAS to be a hormone problem, since everything else has been ruled out, but my hormone tests came back normal, so we’re really just guessing.
MrsFairyBee: Thanks – hopefully December will be the lucky month for both of us!
Post # 9
LadyBear: I face different challages than you do with TTC, but I face chalenges none the less. It sucks. I know it suks! I am so sory you are going through this.
Post # 10
LadyBear: Yeah, BC was basically an easy fix for me too (though I went on it a bit younger- at 13) and I basically never went off of it (we tried once a year or so after starting and my body went back to doing what it was doing so I stayed on it for a long time). But it was so long ago I have no idea what my cycles would be like now if I were off it long-term. Funny, my grandmother (fathers mother) also had anemia due to similar issues (she also had 5 kids so it must have worked out somehow). Hope they get it figured out or the plan works and you can have a lucky December!!
Post # 11
I feel your pain. I have been off BC for nearly two years and am yeat to have a ‘normal’ cycle. My periods last for weeks at a timeand I have never got a positive opk or any proper indication of ovulation, its so frustrating! The doctors also think I have some sort of vague ‘hormonal’ problem but have so far been unable to figure out what that is so haven’t been able to treat it. The options seem to be ‘go back on BC and you won’t have the period problems’ or ‘put up with the period problems and you’ll probably be unable to get pregnant/sustain a pregnancy anyway’. Sigh…
So, you are not alone. Hugs and solidarity here x
Post # 12
LadyBear: Hugs! I’m so sorry you’ve had such a crazy journey. Based on what you’ve said, it sounds like your doctors don’t think you are broken — they think Clomid can work for you and you can conceive. If they think so, then I certainly think so, too. FX super hard that December is your cycle!!!!
Post # 13
Sending HUGS to you. So sorry you are going through this. Try to keep a positive outlook that at least you have a plan in place, and a reason why you haven’t had any luck since January. I’ve also been TTC since January with no health issues, and no BFPs, so I know how hard and how long this process has been for you! FX and sending you good vibes for your December cycle!
Post # 14
- Wedding: April 2013 - Rhode Island
I had a similar TTC journey (minus all the bleeding; in that respect I was the opposite). I stopped BCPs and started temping and charting. My cycles were all over the place. Some as long as 70 days, others as short as 18. When my period finally came, it was always so light it was basically non-existent. I never got a temperature surge to confirm ovulation.
I started getting ultrasounds and blood tests and all kinds of stuff to try and diagnose me with PCOS or another fertility problem. Two days before I was supposed to schedule an HSG, I randomly ovulated. I got the obvious temp surge that I had never seen before. After about 6 months of never ovulating, ovulating that one time was all it took to get me a BFP! It’s definitely very disheartening when you’re going through it, but have faith that you will have a baby one day. Those 6 months felt like a lifetime, but my life completely changed in two weeks.