- 3 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
Does anyone else get that? Or…I guess I should say I think it feels like dating would feel like since I haven’t dated in six years…
Right now I’m in the process of finding a videographer all by myself – FI is across the country, my MOH is busy with student teaching, my mom has a crazy new work schedule. So I’ve been meeting with the videographers in the evenings by myself. The videographer buys me a coffee, we cozy up in a booth to watch romantic wedding videos…very date like (well, I guess it’d be weird to watch wedding videos on a date, but you know). We chat about work, our likes, dislikes, etc.
Plus, it’s like I feel like I’m leading them on – yes, I like you, but I can’t book all of you, so I’m going to break some of their hearts. One guy in particular kept telling me “he has a really good feeling about our wedding”…and I’m probably not going to go with him! FI keeps telling me “it’s just business!”, but I still feel bad. I just feel like I bond with everyone and I don’t want to let anyone down.
Am I crazy, or does anyone else get that?