- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
I wasn’t sure if this should go in fitness or wellness or both….
I’m 24. I had to have emergency surgery TWICE within 3 months of each other last year. It has been almost a year since surgery 1 and 9 months since surgery 2. It was bowel surgery, so they had to remove part of my intestines and I couldn’t eat for a week since I had a tube pumping my stomach. I usually am 105-110. Pre surgery 1, I was 105, went down to 101, got back up to 104 only for the second surgery to hit me back to 97. I was gaunt, I felt like a stick, no muscle, I couldn’t lift anything (doctor’s orders) and it really took its toll. I have gone back to 110 and the number isn’t an issue, it’s that I feel like the weight went to new places, more in my hips, maybe my breasts (which at like a 30Dirty Delete isn’t my favorite part). I am trying to start working out again more to tone and build strength. However, I have a 5 inch incision line from my belly button down. The scar I’m self conscious about, but it’s more the flabby/lumpy stomach that I’m afraid no amount of exercise will fixed. They cut through the muscle and of course there’s going to be some scar tissue underneath. I know ladies go through this with C-sections all the time, but I guess wasn’t emotionally ready for my body to change until I got pregnant (which is planned for many many years from now!) I’m having a really hard time with body image. I’ve never struggled with weight or had to do hard core exercise to keep my figure. DOes anyone out there have a vertical incision (either from a surgery or c-section) and has been able to get back to some semblance of their former selves? My honeymoon is over a year away ,I have time, I am just so nervous baring my stomach, and I don’t like feeling so insecure.
I had taken a pilates class right before my first surgery and I looked the best I had ever looked and was so proud of myself.. and I don’t know if it’s ever possible to get that back now. I guess it was a traumatic experience (the pain and the subsequent scary surgeries) and I’m just so upset that it happened to me– when I have no chronic conditions (even now) and am so young.
I would love to hear your stories.