- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
So, I’m just under 5′ tall, and I am currently student teaching. Surprisingly, the middle school students almost never mention my height… it is like they don’t even notice until they stand right next to me, then some of them utter a surprised, “Oh! I’m taller than you…”
That doesn’t bother me. I just say, “that’s true”, and keep on going.
What frustrates me is adults who have never met me making comments on my height/how young I look.
I have had at least 4 women who work at the school, whom I had NOT been introduced to at the time, simply pass me in the hall and call out, “Wow! I thought you were a student!” or “You look SOOOO young!”
I get it. From far away down the hall, you thought I was a student, who should have been in class. Upon approaching me, it became clear I was not dressed as a middle school kid, and was, in fact, wearing an ID badge. WHY DO YOU FEEL THE NEED TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT IT???
I have had observers tell me I project confidence when teaching, and it is something I work hard at doing at all times, so it will be clear who is in charge when most of the kids are bigger than me. It is incredibly deflating to hear comments from other adults basically saying that I am indistinguishible from a 12 year old to them. I HATE being judged as weak, young, and incapable based on how freaking TALL I am. People act like it is some kind of incredible difficulty to overcome, and it is insulting.
I dress more professionally than most teachers to make up for my height. I walk with purpose. I speak clearly and confidently. I have Dirty Delete boobs! Nothing about me says “teenager” except for my height, and I am tired of rude people making me feel like I am not doing enough to look the part of a teacher.