- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
A little vent…
I’ve been officially waiting for a few months but wedding talk w/ SO has gotten intense in the past few weeks. He has told his whole family and all of his close friends that we will be getting engaged soon. He apparently knows when he will propose and has told his family when. I’m pretty sure he has not yet spoken to my dad, but I have filled my dad in on the details that we have planned so far. SO & I recently decided on a Destination Wedding (probably in Oct 2013) so we have given everyone close to us a heads up so that they can begin financially planning for it if they’d like to.
I alternate between not really thinking about the engagement at all to (most of the time) completely obsessing over it. His “deadline” is December and I have a feeling that the proposal will be anytime in Sept to Dec. BUT I AM DYING FOR IT! We have a trip planned next month and I catch myself daydreaming about a vacation proposal. I don’t want to get my hopes up (b/c I realllly don’t think it will happen on this trip) but it is so hard not to think about.
I feel like in this weird position where everyone knows what’s going on except me. Future Mother-In-Law is finally excited (she was caught off guard when SO first told her) and now she is telling EVERYONE. So, his aunt posted a “congrats, can’t wait for the big day” on SO’s facebook. Luckily we deleted it before anyone seemed to see it. We’re not formally engaged so I don’t want our whole FB world to know anything right now. I love that SO is excited and his family is too, but it’s also a little strange to be in this pre-engaged state and I almost feel like I’m on the middle of it all.
I don’t want to sound ungrateful, but I was trying hard to keep my wedding obsession in check but when I have family & friends talk about it it just fuels my fire and makes me dwell on it even more. Plus I feel like I can’t even vent to my sis about this because she doesn’t want to talk about it until I’m really engaged. Which sucks for me. She said she’s just superstitious like that and can’t see making any plans until I have a ring. She also doesn’t seem to like our Destination Wedding idea which makes me feel bad.
Ugh. Sorry this is so long. I’m just having a rough couple of days…