Post # 1
I feel somewhat stupid for coming to you Bees with this, but I’m sitting up worrying and figured, hey, it can’t hurt.
My grandmother went for a scan the end of last week, after a routine x-ray identified a spot on one of her lungs. She’s a former smoker, but quit about 20 years ago after developing severe asthma. Her asthma has gotten worse recently, and she gets winded just climbing the steps in and out of her basement to do the laundry.
I’m trying my hardest to stay positive, but I’m so worried that the results she’s getting back tomorrow are going to indicate cancer. We live 5 hours away. She was the person who babysat me after school each day until my parents got home from work, and we are very close. The thought of not being able to be closer if it is something serious, or possibly terminal, is just so difficult.
I know I shouldn’t jump to conclusions, since everything could be perfectly fine. :/
Post # 3
*hug* I am so sorry you’re going through this, and I pray everything is ok.
I lost my Grandma in 2010 to lymphoma. My mother and I lived with her til I was 11, and she was practically my mom. I spent a year as her primary caretaker as she fought her battle.
No matter where you are, it’s hard. It’s hard to be there every day, and I can’t imagine how hard it would have been for me to be far away. I do know that you will find your strength. You will find that strength and you will be able to channel it to her and use it to help her. Be the strength she was for you 🙂
Post # 4
@MrsEdamame: Hey there…::HUGS::
Do not feel stupid! We are here for support! First of all, I am sorry that you have to be going through this.
Waiting for test results and what the outcome will be is always never easy. I’m a nurse and I know having that feeling and sense of the unknown is nerve wracking. Just know that what you’re feeling is normal…it’s normal to feel this way. It’s always difficult for us, especially if it involves someone who we love so much and is so important in our lives. The thought of our loved ones having a serious, or chronic, or debilitating illness affects us even more.
What I can tell you is that, although it is difficult as you mentioned, all you can do for your grandmother, your family and of course for yourself, is to just keep the faith. Keep positive. Hold strong for her and for yourself. After all, isn’t that what your grandma would want you to do? 🙂
Think of all the wonderful memories you have with her, like you mentioned. I hope and pray for all the best. Sending positive thoughts your way!!!
Post # 5
When I was in 7th grade, my grandma was diagnosed with colon cancer. After chemo, the cancer was gone and every year, they’d do a scan. And every single year, she was cancer free. Also, before colon cancer, she smoked like a pack a day. She had smoked since she was 11 years old. After she woke up from her surgery, she never had the desire to smoke again.
Last year though, they found a spot on her lung. It ended up being cancer and they did surgery. She didn’t need chemo or anything – the surgeon was able to remove all the cancer.
So I know how hard it is. I’m extremely close to my grandma. She lived right beside me when I was growing up. I spent practically EVERY single night with her. Waiting on test results and not knowing is absolutely horrible. However, I just wanted to share the story of my grandma so you’d know that even if it DOES turn out to be cancer, it doesn’t mean you should lose hope. Holding onto hope was all that could comfort me during both times. And both times, my grandma has pulled through.
I hope and pray with all my heart that the test results come back negative for cancer.
Post # 7
Best wishes for a good result!!
Post # 8
@MrsEdamame: Big hugs my prayers are with you! God bless her and your family thru this time. im sure the test results will be negative.
Post # 9
@MrsEdamame: Hey there, just came across your post again and I hope everything is alright! x
Post # 10
Thanks for all the positive thoughts! So the results are in, and there is a new spot on her lung. She had a spot previously, apparently since childhood. They are just watching this spot, and will have her scanned again in six months. Not sure what that means, but it is better than an outright diagnosis of cancer.
In the meantime, I will be calling her more, trying to make more trips north to spend time with her, and hopefully planning a small vacation with her and my sister for this summer. Health scares certainly remind you to never take time with loved ones for granted!