- 4 years ago
I swear I am going crazy.lol. Me and my boyfriend have been dating 5 years(yesterday!) and I never thought I was “waiting” until recently. I just want the ring!!lol…I know that sounds bad, but we have a house together, dogs together, car insurance together..everything. So I’m not really waiting for commitment or anything like that, because I know we are solid and nobodies going anywhere. But I just want that ring on my finger to make it all complete. We have already talked about getting married in 2015 and he has told me that getting engaged “may be sooner then you think..”. He told me he would buy the ring before he got a new car, and he has been looking at new cars pretty seriously lately (almost bought one 2 wks ago). So its making me anxious, because I think he already has it or is REALLY close to having it.
Last night was our 5 year anniversary, which was the first day that my brain went totally insane with the waiting thoughts. I KNEW he wouldnt propose because I just made dinner at home because we had to work the next day, and we are planning on going out Saturday to celebrate. But still, when he walked in the door it was in the back of my mind, everytime I turned away from him I thought I would turn around to him on one knee, he let the dog out to go to the bathroom and I was thinking maybe he is going to be creative and tie it to his collar on his way back. hahaha. My mind was SO ridiculous last night, for no reason because the part of my brain that was not going insane KNEW he wasnt going to.
So now I keep thinking its going to be Saturday.haha. We are going downtown to have margaritas and walk on the pedestrian bridge at night. So we’ll see. haha. I honestly don’t care if he doesnt, but the thought of him proposing will not get out of my head!!! Its just hard for me to wait, because I am so OCD and always have to know all the details about everything, and I know NOTHING about this. ugh, its difficult!
I don’t know how girls could wait like this for months/years. whew. My brain is annoying me already! haha. Did anybody else have a FIRST DAY when you couldnt stop the proposal thoughts?