- 2 years ago
I was just looking to see if anyone else can relate or has any advice on how to deal with something I have struggled with for years!
I am 23 yrs old, I weigh about 125lbs and am 5’8.. I am right in the line between “healthy/underweight” and would like to gain weight to be at a more “average” BMI..
My issue is, I had horrible eating habits as a child, never really wanted to “lose weight”, but if you saw pictures of me as a kid you would think I had some sort of eating disorder, and I have always struggled putting on weight because I just don’t get as hungry as most people.. Also, when I do start gaining weight it always goes to my face and stomach, leaving me looking like the malnourished pictures of kids we see from africa.. sounds awful I know but it is frustrating!
I have read forums of recovering anorexic people that say when they first gain weight it goes to the same areas as me, and eventually “redistributes” when your body assimilates the weight gain and new food intake..
People I know tell me to workout, but I feel guilty when I workout because I am burning calories, and at the same time I feel guilty when I don’t because I feel I am just going to pack on the pounds in my tummY!
Also, I have a desk job (since July of last year) and so I would like to incorporate soe sort of exercise into my life since I currently don’t really workout aside from those random days when the mood strikes and I have very short ones…
I have recently downloaded an app to count my calories which tells me how many to eat a day to gain weight and ahve been eating close to 2200-2500 calories a day sometmes a little less or alittle more.. the food varies from healthy to burgers.. but really I am just kind of getting desperate and frustrated.. I wish I was either just REALLY skinny all over so that I could eat and eat, or bigger so i could just workout and eat healthier.. instead it’s like I am both and don’t know what to do! sigh…
In a way I am just venting, but also want advice.. thanks bees! 🙂
I must also add.. I usually gravitate towards food taht is considered “healthy” but try to eat burgers and fries to get more calories, and working out does not come easy to me.. but I wish it did!
Edit: I will ALSO add that this is something I have struggle dwith FOREVER! I was so skinny even before that I didn’t get my period till I was 15 and a half! which is probably why I barely have any hips or butt or boobs or a womanly shape really.. just tall and lanky.. sigh
- This topic was modified 2 years, 5 months ago by willow_1960.