- 6 years ago
- Wedding: March 2013
I’ve become obsessed with money and what things are costing for our wedding.
Let me start off my saying we have our budget figured out, money saved (and continuing to save) and some financial help from our parents (you may remember the whole issue
with FI’s Dad I’ve been posting about). We are going the most frugal and economical route, getting the best deals. We can totally make this work.
But I can’t stop obsessing over the costs.
I grew up in a household where there were no big financial purchases made. If it wasn’t justifiable, it wasn’t bought. Huge outlayings of cash were few and far in-between and if it wasn’t going to be used (or anything like that), it wasn’t purchased. I’ve since grown up to hem-and-haw over anything worth $50.00 – I’m not kidding. I try to avoid big expenditures like the plague and they make me anxious. Frivolous buys are not done on my watch.
I hyperventilated putting $2,000 down on my car and paying first/last/security on FI’s and my apartment, because they occurred within two months of each other. Both were necessities, but I nearly fell on the floor in the fetal position.
So, wedding planning and paying is making me so anxious and depressed. What’s supposed to by a joyous time is making me a neurotic what-seems-to-be a penny-pinching bride! I’m glad we’re getting the good deals we are, but I’m still so anxious.
Our first big expenditure is due soon – the security for the ceremony and venue, which is $1900.00, which is refunded the day of the wedding (the actual payment will be around $2,114, depending upon the final headcount). It’s the best deal anywhere within 50 miles of us and it’s for 11 hours. It’s wonderful and what we want. But the thought of spending that much is making me shake my head. My “can’t justify it” sense is kicking in.
It’s making me look at other future expenditures: $750.00 for the DJ for both the ceremony and reception, no time cap – awesome deal, but I can’t wrap my had around paying that! $550.00 for videographer for two people filming, no time cap – again, awesome deal, but, once again, I can’t wrap my head around paying that!
Some may think, well, just get a courtroom wedding, but I (and FI) don’t want that! We’ve been through so much with so little celebrating in our lives that we deserve this. We never throw parties, big events in our lives go barely noticed, and FI’s family only sees each other at funerals, so it’ll be nice to see each other for a celebration, instead.
But the idea of spending all this money is making me palpitate, no matter how great the deals are.
Please tell me I’m not the only one out there like this…