- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
I’m really bad at titling posts.
Anyway, my wedding is in less than 4 months and I still haven’t signed anything with a photographer. I’m stuck between two people and I’m worried about the budget, some of which I ended up spending on things like rent because I was stupid and lost one of my checks, so now I’ve found myself with about $2,000 less than the budget I had planned. I also keep going back and forth on whether I really need a photographer or not. I’m the kind of person that hates pictures of myself, but I’m afraid that if I don’t take this seriously I might regret it in a few years.
It’s been hard taking the whole planning thing seriously when it took over a year for my parents to take the engagement seriously, and my dad doesn’t want to stay for the reception because he can’t stand my mom and I also think that his wife is hurt that I don’t plan on inviting her. I don’t want to make him do anything he doesn’t want to do. Everyone has an opinion on that and thinks I’m in denial about being hurt and upset about that, and those comments aren’t helping.
I’m also confused about who I’m inviting. Close family members keep requesting if I can add this one person or another and all of a sudden my mom decided to invite some of her siblings and their kids, who don’t even live in the country. And my FMIL wanted to invite a few people I haven’t even met yet (true it’s only 5 people) and I said that was fine if it would make her happier. The thing is that she still hasn’t given us those addresses even though we’ve asked for them numerous times. I also don’t know who my BM’s expect me to invite. One of them said something to me the other day that implied that she thinks her family is invited. My original goal to invite 30 people is slowly crossing the 70 mark.
Sometimes, I really just think about throwing my hands in the air, calling my mom, and telling her that the planning is all hers. I have no idea what I’m doing sometimes with this thing, and it doesn’t help that I’m the first of my friends to be getting married.