- 4 years ago
- Wedding: November 2016 - Highfield House, Stanley, Tasmania
This will seem like a really stupid rant, but please bear with me.
My FI and I are in a LDR, him being in Brazil and I in Australia. We are both having a lot of difficulty with this, and I feel like no body understands or cares about our problems.
You see, FI is involved in the protests over there, and although there have been fewer lately, we both know that this year with the World Cup, things will heat up (I shan’t discuss the politics there, that is not what this post is about). He has been wounded before, and at one point I thought he had been killed. I have had friends tell me that I shouldn’t worry and to suck it up because he is not in the military and therefore he is not in much danger, and that as I am not a military bride, I have no right to be feeling like this. They act like I am somehow disrespecting the families of soldiers, even though I never mentioned that in the first place, I only metioned my fears of him not returning. They don’t understand that he IS in a lot of danger! And they seem to enjoy telling me that his pain is worthless because he is not a soldier. I just get so angry. I find it hard to express myself in conversation, so I once used the 19th century song “When This Cruel War Is Over” (Weeping Sad And Lonely) to describe my feelings. Here are the lyrics:
You should have seen how these bitches treated me after that. It is not like their signifigant others are in the military, and even if they were, I don’t think that gives them the right to treat me like shit. I feel like I am the only one going through this.. I feel dreadful. Was it wrong to use that song, with it’s mentions of the military? Am I really that bad?