- 4 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
Gah, I just need to get this out there and admit it. I am nervous/scared for my wedding day.
I knew since I was very young it was my mission in life to find my soul mate, and to get married. When I finally met my ‘one for me’ and we started talking about getting married I was super excited, and knew that this is what we wanted.
I’ve been planning this wedding for a year now, and have loved the entire planning process. I am a planner, I love planning. I want to be married to my FI, and move forward with our lives as husband and wife, but the wedding day is freaking me out a lot.
I am scared of everyone’s eyes on me and my FI, talking in public. I am scared my wedding is going to suck, or people are going to back out at the last minute, or I’ll smeer my red lipstick on my wedding dress, I am scared because now it is feeling all so real.
I mean…I know I am getting married. I’ve known for a year now since I’ve been planning it! But it always seemed far away, so I never had to worry, but now..Knowing that I am almost a month away from getting married I get mini panic attacks of the pressure a wedding day can bring.
A part of me wants to slink into a courthouse and just do it there with no pressure, but I know that isn’t what I want. I want the wedding I have been planning, but I guess I have caught a case of the wedding jitters.
I would like to say that this has nothing to do with my FI. I want to marry him so badly, what scares me is having an entire day to ourselves, what if I suck at hosting? I also have never been good with imminent events for some reason I don’t like the finality of certain things like death, apparently my wedding day, setting up an appointment to go to the doctor, dentist, or vendor. I have no idea why I am like that, but I am.
….So….Anyone else deal with this? Whatever it is? I don’t know.
Any sage advice?