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Long story ... Me and my ex fiancee had been together almost 5 years, during the first year I got pregnant and miscarried. And was also being stalked by my ex who swore he was going to kill me. My fiance stayed with me through all those hard times. But when I miscarried I kept him from seeing it as to me I felt ashamed and didnt handle it well. He never got over this because his family kept telling him I was never pregnant. This crushed me I was only 17 at the time. Later on we would argue and I was always mad and going off on him. I suffer from depression and had major mood swings up until this jan, and he was always my target. Year 2 came and I had just turned 18 and I was out all the time he was 19. I was partying with friends and kind of was ignoring him this didnt sit right with him. He was going to school and starting a career at the time. later that year I got pregnant again, this time I had a good pregnancy and the baby wasn't going anywhere. He didnt want the baby and got mad at me for keeping it.

After I was 5 months pregnant he came around but I was still so pissed at him, which led to fights. After I had the baby things were fine for a little, but then my temper wouldn't let the pregnancy issue go so we fought again. He then took a break from me, which went from a break to I might want to talk to other women. He decided he didnt want to and we stayed together. We moved in quickly after that ans things from the pregnancy and the break (he was treating me cold and acting like he was talking to another girl). The whole year we lived together we fought and fought bad . He broke up with me three time during that year, The third time was right before we moved out this april.

I started going to therapy earlier this year and got my temper under control. after about a month he asked to get back together, I told him I needed more time. He then moved 45 mins away with a friend. I asked him early may if he was ready to get back together., he said yes. Then 2 weeks after he tells me he's not sure and he needs to get his life together. He doesn't work and is not in school and he's 24. I didn't understand but said i'd give him space. 2 weeks after that I asked him if he needed more space he said no, but feels like he'd be stringing me along. If he decided later on he needed to be by himself. (weve been together since he was 19).

He then changed his mind to we shouldn't be together. And that he's tired of trying to work on things. Im so heart broken we have a child together and weve been together so long. He says he still loves me and see's himself marrying me and only me one day. But I cant even think about him seeing or sleeping with other girls then coming back to me later. Or if he finds someone else, He keeps telling me I changed too late. Im so hurt Idk what to do any advice bee's?