Post # 1
For the past two weeks or so I’ve been really down on myself about my body. I’ve gained about 15 lbs in the past year, and while I’ll go and workout for stints of about two months, when I don’t see any results, I get pouty and upset.
These past two weeks have been worse than normal. I’ve been struggling with a lot of body hate. At first it was just a bit of, “I need to lose this weight for Mexico” which were doing in about 6-8 weeks from now.
Then my best girlfriend was tagged in a picture of my ex with his current gf. This is the girl who he cheated on me with. I’ve never seen anything but her face (which is very round and cute, but doesn’t scream thin). The current gf has a very attractive body. Not too thin, just right.
Now I’ve been fighting off really depressing thoughts of, “My boyfriend is going to leave me if I don’t lose the weight.” And all other sorts of terrible, self destructive thoughts.
I just don’t know how to fight them off. I was in therapy about three years ago, dealing with my low self esteem and anxiety, and I really can’t afford to go back right now and trying to schedule something with the free college counselors won’t help, because their next available appointment is about 6 weeks away, or the week after finals.
So I’m curious, how do you bees make yourself feel better? I am currently working out again, and have been doing so for about a week now again.
Post # 3
We are all so critical of ourselves it’s really sad.
Some days I can’t stand looking in the mirror and others I’m not so worried.
Try to focus on what you love about yourself and not what you don’t.
All ways remember no one is EVER perfect and try to embrace the great things in life.
Look in the mirror and smile at yourself and look at the difference it makes.
So try to smile more:)))))))))
Post # 4
I know my FI loves me at this weight and even heavier. I know I love him when he looks his best and also when he seems to be going for “hobo chic”.
We’ve both seen and tended to each other at the height of sickness… not a pretty sight, either way.
I flat out told him that although I’d ideallly like to lose a little and tone up my arms for the wedding, I might not, I might even gain weight, so I don’t know what size dress I’ll need yet. He was fully supportive of that, and feels the same way about his tux size.
We will be the size we will be when we get married. Hopefully we will be in good health, as we both are now. If so it will be a perfect day for us. We are not marrying each other because of our respective sizes. I wouldn’t even want to be with a man that would leave me just because I gained weight… I can’t see the future, what if I become disabled, get cancer, any assortment of inconvenient and unsexy things? If I think he would leave me because of those, I would not respect him and wouldn’t want him anyway.
Post # 5
I picked up running when we moved the wedding up to May! I’ve gone from a size 8 and 138lbs to a size 2 and 125lbs. I also only net 1200 cals/day (so I actually eat more on days when I do a significant run)
SO NOT WORTH IT
I am SUPER thin, but SO miserable and cranky, and I like my body less now than I did back in November! But I can’t stop until after the honeymoon!
Post # 6
I beleive we all have ups and downs about our bodies. But I have figured out that I just dont want to hate my body anymore. I have found my happy place and that happens to be a size 6. I realize that letting myself go and eating whatever I want makes me happy at the moment but miserable long term. I just have to watch what I eat and take my vitamins. I take 1000 mg B12, my body stopped producing it. I take 600 mg calcium, I take multi vitamin, and 2 raspberry ketones(made in the usa) I also drink at least 2 liters of water a day and I make sure to eat 1200 calories a day. It’s just what I have to do to make myself happy and I was tired of being miserable,and taking it out on myself and on other people that didn’t do anything to me, but just because i was having a down day about myself I would just be cranky and miserable. I just had a wake up call and I know everyday that this is what I need to do to be ultimately happy 🙂 When I look at it that way It makes it totally worth it.
Post # 7
@joya_aspera: I admitted that I worried about these things and he looked at me and was mad that I thought that about him. He continuously supports me and tells me I’m beautiful. I know that he won’t leave me if I gain weight, however, my emotional/bitchy/crazy side is less certain than my logical side.
Post # 8
Also, thanks to you other bees for responding. I really appreciate it.