Weddingbee boards

So I have been with my boy friend for 4 years now, and we have been talking about spending the rest of our lives together for a long time now. We have discussed wedding ideas, ring ideas, and all of that stuff. So I'm 99% positive that he is going to propose.

Almost everyone around me knows what the plan is, and they are all sworn to secrecy. But they all know, and I know they all know! The only people who don't are me, and my parents. So this is fine, and romantic and whatever, becuase I so so so want it to be a huge surprise, and I don't want to know anything about it.

So today he was acting all weird, like bringing papers home that I could plainly see in his hand and then refusing to tell me what they are, his sister calling him, and he can't talk to her in front of me, and getting off work early to go to his sisters house and run errands with her (which is weird for him), and not telling me about it until I asked how work was (which is really weird, because we ALWAYS tell each other where we are). So I ask him about it casually, and he tells me he is thinking about joining the national gaurd! And I am like WHAT?!? Why?! long story... short... he finally tells me that isn't it. SO then I'm thinking, why would he say that? that is terrible! Then he tells me he is thinking about MOVING AWAY to go to a different school (mind you he has been going to NDSU for 2 years, and his alternative was 2 hours away at a technical school where he could only earn an Associates degree... not too bright). So then he goes on and on, and I get really upset. Becuase this is so uncharecteric of him. Then he falls asleep without resolving it. OH!! and on face book his status 2 days ago was "Steve is thinking about big decisions" and today it was "Steve thinks he has a plan"

What the hell is that? Clearly neither of those stories are true. But now I'm thinking what if he changed his mind? and is trying to figure out how to break up with me? Why would he say those things that are so not like "I want to marry" you conversation starters. I don't get it! Becauase the big decision could be to propose or to say good bye.

But my cousin knows! And she is like my best friend... and I know they have been commnicating ALOT cuz they are texting all the time. So that really makes me think he is just trying to cover his plans up. But why would he be so harsh about it?

What do you all think??

LOL! we are a pretty dramatic couple. haha. But seriously... you think he is just as freaked out as I am? It is just so strange... because just as much as we are lovers... we are best friends.... and it kills me that we can't really talk about this subject. We can... but I don't want to know! Ya know? I'm trying so so so hard just to NOT ask questions about weird behavior and stuff... but wow... he freaked me out so bad tonight. I'm remaining positive.... but I still can't help to think he is going to change his mind. :( This sucks.