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These past two or three days have just been HORRIBLE! Not for any particular reason. It's actually been really small things, like my hubby not giving me an answer instantly when I asked a question (srsly, I'm not a witch!). I'm sure it's mostly PMS, it's just never been this bad. I was watching the Simpons today and almost started tearing up. THE freaking SIMPSONS!! I don't think I'm depressed, but the thought has struck me since I'm unemployed, just got married a month ago (post wedding blues, idk). But, idk. It just seems really bad. I had a job interview today and I was just totally dreading it. I just DO NOT want this job, though I've basically already been offered it. It's nothing that I was looking for (I'm a nanny and was hoping to take care of a baby or toddler), but she has a 3yr old and 6yr old, and the three year old has a ton of food allergies (which I have no experience with). I was hoping for 3 days a week so that I could have some time to pursue other interests like photography, but it's Mon-Fri, basically full time in the summer, but part time starting in Sept when they go back to school. Ugh, just nothing I want. It's also late-ish into the evening, and I hate that, because as soon as I get home I have to start dinner. Hubby says he'll try to learn, but one time I asked him to make a box of hamburger helper or something and I have to tell him step by step, even if it's on the box! No way that will work! But, this has been the ONLY interview, and basically the only reply I've gotten in the past 2 weeks I've been looking for a job, so I feel like I have to take the job because things are so rough right now with the economy. My hubby makes enough to cover bills, but nothing really left over each month. But I also know that taking the job is a commitment and I don't take that lightly. I know I have to commit for at least a year (afterwhich I intend on going back to school). I took a job once that was only on Sundays just because I wasn't finding anything else and I was very miserable with it. Luckily I felt that they didn't really need me (it's Sunday for gosh sakes and she didn't even work. Mostly I was there to take the kids off her hands while she sat around a pool with friends, played tennis, etc). I'm afraid this will happen now, take a job I'm not totally into and hate it for the next 13 months. They want me to start next week so I don't feel I have time to think it over. I really think PMS is making me a bit irrational right now and I hate to commit or deny something when I'm all out of whack like this. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. I know hubby doesn't love his job and that not everyone does and sometimes we just have to "take one for the team" but ugh. Sorry, this really isn't even wedding related. I just feel so flipping stressed over nothing. I think the stress of the whole wedding planning and family issues is just starting to crash down on me in one fell swoop...

To top it off I think I have food poisoning or something... ugh.

Thanks for all the input guys. I'm feeling a little more calm compared to yesterday, but I can tell the PMS is still there though. My mom told me to take some Midol :p

Anyway, after much deliberation (but not too much because I can't leave the family hanging), I decided to take the job, but hopefully I won't have to start until after next week (she originally said July 6th in the first place anyway). This way I'll have some time to teach hubby to cook :p It's not the greatest, but, how many people have to take jobs and McDonald's and stuff just so they can get some money so they can get to where they REALLY want to go in life? I don't intend on making a career out of nannying, and a year of something you don't like really is going to feel like a long time, but the job market REALLY sucks and there is a lot of competition in NYC for nanny positions, believe it or not (one craigslist poster said they got over 400 replies for position they posted...) so, I really should just be grateful and happy that I stood out enough to SOMEONE to consider me for a position. That's an accomplishment, right? The summer will be lame, and even though I feel the hours aren't ideal, at least I won't be there ALL day and hubby and I still have weekends together, which I am infinitely grateful for because for a long time we didn't even have that! Hubby made a point that I was probably spoiled by my last job so anything I find won't seem great (I had a great boss and their little boy was not only wonderful, but he was super cute too!)

Plus, my mom is unemployed and has been since January and still has my two younger siblings at home to take care of (hasn't been getting chid support either because my dad was laid of a week after her, and he also hasn't found a job yet). I'd feel selfish and way too picky if I didn't accept the offer. 

Even if the job turns out DISASTEROUS (which I doubt), I have my wonderful husband to come home to!

Oh, I also applied for Children's International and anyone in NYC would know how desperate I am if I applied for that job...haha! (they stand around on sidewalks outside, intercepting their victims telling them about their cause and tries to get them to donate while making it very difficult for the "victim" to just say no without just ignoring them and walking away). 

I know she says her son eats cupcakes and loves ice cream. I don't know if they have a special brand in the house that she can have too, or if he just gets to eat it and she doesn't, which is where the worrying comes in. I also learned that her reaction isn't so bad that if I had an accident, she wouldn't be in a life threatening situation where I'd need to use an epipen or call the paramedics. Just some benadryl or something a bit stronger if she gets bad hives. 

Petco called today to set up an interview with me. I have been wanting to work at Petco since I was 14 or so :( Ah well. I'm sure the job itself isn't that great, but it's literally like a 2 minute walk from where we live!  Not to mention an interview is no guarantee that I'd get the job.