- 4 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
I am new to the TTC boards, we got married in November but always knew that we wouldnt try right away, we wanted to sell our home and buy a new one (just happened this week!) and I have also stopped taking my birth control but we are not actively trying, basically just getting my body adjusted to not being on it.
Heres my problem, I am 32, DH is 34. We both talk about kids all the time, and actually bought a house with room enough for babies and my DH has already designated a room as the babies room and another as the “game” room (I think thats more for him though!) I keep going back and forth with the idea, do I really want a baby? I have a very demanding career and I know that once I have a baby I might have to scale back and not do as much and travel as much for my job as I do now and it doesnt bother me but I think about these things and wonder if I really want to even try. Then theres other days that I see babies and get almost teary eyed because I want one. Yesterday while taking a walk at lunch they were doing a newborn baby shoot in the park and it made me feel so much joy but then I get home and just relax and that thought goes right out my mind!
Is there something wrong with me? One day I really want a baby the next I am ok with the life I am living and would be ok not having a baby. Did anyone else feel this way??