- 4 years ago
I just saw a guy that’s always being interested in dating me and ugh.
Ling story short. I’m in a long distance relationship with my bf. We’ve been together for two years now. He lives in Europe, I live in PR. We do our best to spend as much time as possible together and we spend long periods of time at each other’s countries but our current business ventures still require our prescence to supervise projects and execute certain functions we can’t delegate.
So, back to the guy. He says, so I hear you were a couple months in Europe. I said yes. He asks what I was doing. Me: uh spending time in the house I share with boyfriend of TWO years. Dude: Mmm I see. I didn’t realize that you were in a relashionship. (I’ve chosen to keep my relationship guarded and not plaster it all over social media. Ok, maybe as sporty-bee here lol) . Anyway so he asks… So he is there and you are here. Interesting. How does that work? In this snarky tone that made me want to strangle him at this point.
Maybe it is because he is being nosy but truth is I’m missing my bf a lot. And coming to an empty house is not nice right now. I lost my dad just four months ago and I’m still reeling from not only the loss but how fast it all happened. I can’t still wrap my head over the fact that my beloved dad is gone.
And bf is starting to talk engagment (start looking at rings you like) and as much as I’m happy i am having a terrible time imagining my wedding with my dad. I can’t even look at pictures of dad right now. I cry uncontrollably. I can’t imagine how I’m going to handle not having my dad give me away at ceremony. And dance with me. And see his face of happiness.
So there, I guess I just needed to vent and let it all out . For God’s sake this post doesn’t even make sense, but I guess since I am crying my eyes out I didn’t want to call mom, siblings or niece in case they were having a “day off” from greiving process and were actually a bit happy today. :'(