Weddingbee boards

First off sorry this is going to be one big paragraph, I can't separate them on my ipad. So my FI and I moved from Ventura (halfway from LA and Santa Barbara) to the Bay Area Sept '10. He got a new job, which is why we moved, and I transferred to another location within my company that I had currently been with. We had a lot of trouble finding an apt (mainly we didn't give ourselves enough time to look, doh!) so his job put us up in a hotel for about a month and a half. We ended up finding a place eventually, about 20 mins from his office and an hour from my work. This was NO different than when we lived in Ventura. After a month I got recruited to a new job (I work retail) closer to home. AKA I can now ***walk*** to work. Well I took on the job with a sort of promotion, and a 6-18 month time span of training to be a store manager. I'm starting to grow really tired of retail, but my FI tells me once I have that title I can go anywhere, and I'm good at it. So I took it, left a great job, etc. Well recently our DM moved back home to be closer to her family, so it made sense that my boss would step up and then I could step up into her spot (oh she told me when I interviewed that she wanted to move up.) So the other day I casually asked her if she was going to be replacing our DM. Her response? Oh no I've done the corporate world, I much rather be in the store. I really don't know what to do. I don't feel like I "fit in" with the staff here as much, and that's never been something that I've had an issue with, and now I feel like I was lied to so I would take the job. I just don't know what to do. I never went to college, just didn't feel like it was my thing, but now I'm thinking I want to go to school. Long before I had ever heard of Sprinkles or CrushCakes or Cupcake Wars, I've loved baking, cupcakes to be precise. My FI keeps encouraging me to go to culinary school, and I occasionally (okay, okay, often) dream of opening my own little cupcake shop. I just don't know. I need some advice, bees!

@heyitskate:

You're absolutely right, I've been telling myself for over a year now that I should go to school, but I think my main issue is fear of the unknown, and fear of failure. What if I'm not good, how do I pay for it, what if I can't get grants or loans, how do we cover my portion of the income, etc ugh. Also I'm like Monica from Friends, I HATE losing/failing. So I'll sometimes not even try, which I *know* is just worse than not even trying.

@Cornflakegirl:

lol yeah, I wanted to be Miss Cupcake but bc there's a Mrs out there WB wouldn't let me. And I do love chocolate :) Thank you for the push and the warm words of encouragement, they truly mean a lot.