- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
Hi… I just need to let this out..I just got the worst news I have ever gotten in my life.
My father is dieing. Terminal with cancer.
He isnt actually my father. He is the only peron in the world I could ever consider a father though. Long ago, my parents gave up on me and now pretty much ignore my excistance. Except when theny want to rub something in my face or get me to babysit for them. Ive been mentaly and physically abused by them for as long as I can remember. And just when I had no hope left I met a friend whom I became very close to. We hung out all the time and I was always over at his house. His parents were the most amazing people I have ever met. Kind, generouse, always smiling. So care-free and lived life to the fullest. They showed me what a real family was like. Sit down dinners, conversation, understanding, love. All things that I hadnt seen in years. And I found it in them.
I barely spent any time at home. I was either at school, working or at his plave. I ate hundreds of lunches and dinners there, celebrated christmas, halloween, birthdays with them. They supported my ideas, Helped me with life choices, and got me through alot of emotional termoil that my real family put me through.
Almost 2 years ago he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in his asaufagus(sp?) They removed his vocal cords and he started to feel/look better for a long time. Then suddenly he got alot worse, they kept finding one new clot after another on his spinal chord. Hes been travelling to the best in the country, and this morning I was informed that there is no more they can do for him. He’s terminal.
Im at my wits end, I dont know what to think/do, i cant imagine how his wife is feeling, his sons, my friend. I cant think strait, have no appitite, ive been crying. He most likely wont make it to our wedding in august. He was supose to walk me down the isle. I..cant even breath right. I’ll hold my breath then let go hoping something will change. But nothing does.
It sucks. They were the perfect family, they were the healthiest people I knew, they had strong bonds, openly talked about everything together. Without them I wouldnt even know what a real fmily would be like, I wouldnt know how to raise my own kids. I have never seen so much love in any other house hold. Yet..this awful thing has to happen to them. Suffering, pain, agony. He doesnt deserve it..they dont deserve it.
Its not fair that such nice people like them have to suffer through this while people like my parents are still polluting the world. I would rather see them go than this man. He is twice the person than my parents could ever be combined.
Even though he isnt related to me.. im loosing my dad.