- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2011
I’ve got the feva…..the baby feva that is!
FI and I have been together happily for almost five years, we have been engaged since last May, we are both 28. I’ve been overcome with the urge to have a baby recently, this happened to me last year but, the feelings seemed to dull down slightly, it’s back with a vengeance and honestly, it’s making me sad and a little irritable. I feel so impatient, I feel more than ready to have a baby- emotionally that is. I was adopted as a toddler and had a very turblulant childhood (was abused by adopted Mother and Brother), my adopted parents abandoned me at 13, I have such a strong desire to finally have my own children, my own little family, I yearn for this but, I know the child chapter won’t come until around 2012. I have so much love to give. I find myself day dreaming of life with a child of my own with my (almost) husband, looking up baby names, cooing over babies etc…
F.M.I.L made a comment to my FI best friends who are expecting their first baby soon, she’s known this couple for years, anyway she said “how excited she is for her Grandbaby to get here”, meaning their baby and this really irked me, I know in reality I’m overreacting and being sensitive about such a small comment but, it hurt my feelings for some reason because she called their baby her Grandbaby……it’s like rubbing salt in my wound. Oh sheesh I sound nuts! Boy oh boy, what has become of me? I’ve become so sensitive and I guess irrational?
I just needed to get out what I was feeling, thanks for reading. I don’t have many female friends who I feel would understand or be helpful so I figured I’d have a little vent here- slightly embarrassing. Any ideas how to suppress this baby urge? Thoughts and comments welcome. Thanks for reading.