- 7 years ago
So in April (2010) I had a pretty serious breakdown with my SO. I wanted a proposal so badly it was literally all I could taste and every word out of his mouth was suspect to my twisting it around to somehow negate to proposal. “Dinner with the friends?” – So he can propose in front of all our friends? ABSOLUTELY. You get the idea….
We had a really good talk and we both got to state our piece on where we were at, how we felt, and even my ridiculous rantings, and agreed to a vague time frame of where we saw our life in several years – which included a wedding. I also switched my promise ring to my right hand as I could hardly stand the questions anymore, and even went without wearing it for about a month to trully convince myself a ring wasn’t the answer – and it worked.
I’ve been awesome, not obsessing over a wedding, not throwing a fit when I should be happy for others, and all around feeling very stable in my own relationship and our timing. I even held my own when he lingered around the engagement section and asked my opinions about rings in June. Heck, I even went as far to ACT like I didn’t see him doing it and act surprised when he called me over for an opinion. AND my opinion didn’t involve fits of giggles, drooling, or otherwise any inference that inside I was screaming like a little girl and jumping up and down. They were quick few word sentences like, “oh yes, that one IS nice” – end sentence.
BUT! He lingered a second time in December when we took my ring again, AND I catch him peeking when I’m scoping out the rings boards. As if that wasn’t bad enough? He started COMMENTING on the rings, UNPROVOKED. And the other night we even looked at bands for HIM! Curse him! I was doing so well acting uninterested as long as he was also uninterested.
So…. I’m making a vow before I end up swallowed in the same desperation I was feeling 8 months ago in April :
I will NOT talk or browse anything about proposals/rings/weddings/planning a wedding/anything else wedding related in or around his presence, with the exception that he asks me a wedding topic related question, UNTIL there is a wedding to be planned – either through a proposal or through a mutual agreement that it is time.
Any other bees with me?