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I am in an incredible funk today.  Life is sooo in the way right now.  M was in an accident a little over a week ago and his truck was totalled, this was conveniently only FIVE days after I downsized my truck in an effort to save money.  So yes we are currently without a vehicle! And M works so much that I'm not sure when we'll be able to purchase a new one, we're thinking next weekend but he works every Saturday and Sunday and since I work a seasonal job I have to work every day starting Tuesday through Saturday (and yes that includes Thanksgiving which is fine because I get paid time and a half).  I'm just really moody and ready for our lives to begin together and I feel like every time we get ready to move forward something happens to pull us back c'est la vie.  I also think it's because I secretly REALLY want a Christmas proposal but I know he may not be able to afford it even if it's only a few hundred dollars, you know. Sigh I guess this was a vent but not really, more of a I'm sad right now

Aw, *hugs* Doesn't timing always seem to work that way? 

I hope tomorrow goes better and that M has something up his sleeve for Christmas...

@lily: thanks girlie!! yes timing always sucks.  i do understand a lot and won't be upset with him because I know that he may not be able to even if he wants to and i never want to make him feel bad about it, but i'd much rather him ask... I am so ready for us to begin planning for the day that will join our family together. Maybe I am mopey because I miss him and he's had to work at the club EVERY DAY this week except Sunday..

See, it's times like this when I hate the pressure the jewelry and wedding industry puts on guys for E rings... crebre, I know you'd be happy with any beautiful ring he picked out, but I'm willing to be he feels like he has to find the perfect ring, which doesn't always come with the perfect price. 

I know how hard time away from your guy is. R is a Biology major, pre-vet! His life is Bio right now. 

@jabride: he does soo much for our family already i suppose that's why i never pressed the huge ring issue, i mean i work a part-time job for my play money and had the incident with the car not happened, i would have expected it, now i truly doubt it.  and the fact that i've always wanted a colored stone helps tremendously. because with the exception of the tiffany ring, the ones i LOVE are less than $500.00..

with that being said though, i don't want him to have to sacrifice to buy a ring for me :(... i am so full of contradictions and insanity!!  it's like i want him to ask, but i don't want it to be a burden on him if he asks. and he makes a great salary, but i still know that he is going through custody issues etc with his kids so any amount of cash that he spends towards this could definitely be used towards the kids. arrgh (throwing my hands in the air)....

@lilyfaith: i totally agree... i found the most perfect rings lately for less than 200!! both were 2 carat blue topazes with diamonds EXACTLY what i want and of course i sent him hints i'm sure he deletes it because he says it's his decision what ring i get LMBO!! but with that being said at least he knows that he doesn't have to spend a bunch of moolah to please me...

@honeybear: thanks girlie!! yes these are my favorite times as well... this is the first year that i am not devastated because i am not married lol! i am actually excited about the future, but i am just ready being a brat right now... i am happy just in a funk... sigh... i am with the man that i belong to so this time is actually but a short blip in time if you consider the next 50 or 60 years that we'll be together...

*hugs* Trust me, I know the feeling of "everything is falling down around my ears and I can do NOTHING about it..." I'm so there right now and I guarantee that I will have a HUGE meltdown tomorrow afternoon.

I'm so sorry so many things are going wrong for you right now.  But you are a great person and things will turn around I promise!  I know how hard it is looking for a car, I need to find one and it's so hard!

*HUGS* I'm sorry! It's so hard to see you upset. That really stinks, I hope you feel better soon!

oh no! i hate it when life rears up and reminds us we're not in control. i hope the ladies here were able to help lift your spirits some tonight. hopefully you two will be able to figure something out soon. seems like you both have been a great support for the other. keep your chin up girl!

um, this is my first attempt at a Crebre-style picture.

Feeling like this today?

@daydreamwanderer- LOL very nice

@crebre- UGH. I am sorry you're having a crappy week it sounds like. Life always does seem to get in the way doesn't it? We're having the same problem with setting a date.. may be pushed back to March 2011 now.... so you'll probably be married before me anyways! :) 

So today feels like this...

But just remember, it could be like this...

HIYA!! Y'all are soo sweet!!

@DD AWESOME PICTURES!!! I am actually a bit better today. I usually always am sad if I haven't seen M in a while (i see him every day, but not really because of the club and work) so it's very brief...

@Everyone else: YOU LADIES FRIGGIN' ROCK!! I feel much better today. I think yesterday was just a low point for who knows why? I think M just sounded more down than usual and he's usually so upbeat

Sometimes I feel really bad because I don't work full-time, I only have my business and my part-time job so I know he carries a lot on his shoulders and I am so proud of him.  He's so cute and says all the time that he is happy with me at home. I think he's happier that because of him I can be at home and he loves being my provider and taking care of the kids and I.  Sometimes it's awesome other times it's like dude I can help out more etc.. And instead he's like nope, continue doing what you're doing I got this and can handle it.  I love him so much. 

Other news, I am meeting with more and more potential clients!! I am so happy that people actually love what I do because I put my heart and soul in my job and it's wonderful that people acknowledge and see that as well. 

It's so strange, usually I have some type of seasonal depression around this time of year (it usually starts before Halloween) and this year I am great.  Even yesterday while I was sad, I wasn't like omg this is the end sad (i am dramatic remember). it's crazy because everything that we are going through now seems so temporary if that makes sense.  It's very inconvenient with the vehicle situation now, but I know that that will change, we are looking at cars the weekend after Thanksgiving and will more than likely have a new one before Christmas as well as another one after the tax refunds.. That's only in like 8 weeks, I'm just being a baby. But I knew that y'all would make me feel better :D

@bvig: lol!! I actually have worked since I was 15 years old... So this is the first time in nearly half my life that I haven't.  And it's a misnomer since I am working on my business and taking client calls etc, but I don't justify it as being a "real" job because I am at home.  Does that make sense?  I am thankful for my part-time job because I was going quite stir crazy lol!! I am so excited to talk to people and I love the crafts etc. I think I spend about as much money as I make at my part-time job lol!! M teases all the time, but he understands because I have been able to get GREAT deals on most of my business items.

@bvig: Yeah it's definitely slow or was when I first started, next year is extremely busy and I'm really excited about everything that is going on wiht it.  I definitely say you should sit down and do some soul searching, is there anything that you have dreamed of doing that you have been told you're good at? like do you love organizing things?  perhaps you could start your own organization business?  if you like flowers, perhaps become a florist? if you like a lot of the diy that you're doing for your wedding, perhaps become a sort of diy assistant, etc.

@dancy: i'm sooo much better today!! everyone calls me diva instead lol!! my family would find it very fitting because i can have my moments dahling!! imagine me all diana ross style with my huge sunglasses and great coat with faux fur and heels.. most of the time i think i'm pretty fantastic LMAO!! and the crebre-style pictures had me cracking up as well...

on another note my cutie patootie son bought me flowers that he picked on the way home from the bus stop... he goes mommy i have a surprise close your eyes.. hold your hands out, and i did and he gave me the tiniest little purple flowers and a hug and then went outside to play... sigh he's adorable and i love him to pieces!!!

thanks vintage!! i'll be working tomorrow part-time and just relaxing! i have to start christmas shopping as well. i only have a gift for my son, everyone else will get something cool from work because well heck i get a friggin' discount!! can anyone say brooches?!

hehe, glad you liked the pictures :)

@alishaneva: thankfully we'll be with a car very soon lol!! i think i was having a moment of insanity/whoa is me.  i have had a card since i got my license and so has M!! so it's extremely temporary.

@DD: you rock :P