- 4 years ago
I bet I’m not the only bee dreaming of a Christmas proposal. It has actually started to become quite an obsession. I need advice on how to stop reading into everything that a proposal is coming this holiday and advice on how to not be disapointed at least not visibly when it doesn’t happen on Christmas.
I want a ring this year. I dont care if it is mossonite or topaz or any other stone. I want a proposal. I want the reassurance that this man wants to marry me. The real reassurance that comes with an actual proposal.
Why I think it’s coming…
He told me my gift is big and small – “A small thing that is big” exact words
My son told me the gift is something you have to save up for and that it has to be made.
He has been in my jewlery box and commented on a diamond I have from an ex. Its small and I honestly dont know what to do with it which is why it is still there. It wasn’t an engagement ring but looks like one.
He came out of my bathroom with a ring he found in there on his finger calling it a pinky ring. I placed it on my right hand ring finger so he would know its not a pinky ring my hands are just that small.
He was in my closet the other day asking why I never wear my cocktail dresses, Duh we dont go anywhere that it would be appropriate to wear them.
His dads gf and a mutual friend have asked me about marriage recently.
He has made comments about his last name being a good name for me and that my initials wont change.
There is a ton more but those are the highlights and the most recent.
Why I know it isn’t happening…
He told me last night this year is a difficult year with money so it wont be a 3000$ xmas or anything. I had told him that after all the anticipation and my son teasing me about the gift that I was afraid I’d be disapointed. He told me he was getting me pj’s and a hulu subscription and some other little things. It is a difficult time for us both this christmas so i know he wasn’t lying to throw me off the trail. He was asking me what I wanted and I couldn’t bring myself to say that I wanted a ring. I couldn’t think of anything else to ask for either.
I dont even know why I want it so bad but I do. Please help me with some advice bees. How do I not be sad and just be grateful to spend the holiday with him by my side.