- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
Sorry for being MIA. I’ve been on a missions trip to Mexico and just got back this morning. It was a good trip and I loved every minute of it (we built 4 houses in 3 days!), but its good to be home too. Behind on this thread, but I’ll stay up on it from here. 11dpo today and planning on starting hybrid cycle IUI this week (which is absolutely terrifying and exciting at the same time). However, I had spotting in Mexico the night of 6dpo. It could be stress related (I handled a LOT of the trip for 56 people), but I never ever spot that early. I’m holding out hope that we won’t be doing IUI at all and we’ll have a bfp to celebrate instead! AF is due Wed, not sure if I’ll test before then or not.
AFM, I’m on BCPs until the end of March before starting lupron flare, so I’m trying to lay low, enjoy snuggling with my pup, and not think about fertility treatment. So far so good — I scored a super snuggler!
I’m sorry I’ve been MIA. It’s been a busy few weeks. Congratulations to those who have seen those magical, mystical two lines!
I got AF yesterday at 5:30am. I spoke with the nurse at the RE office and she said that the RE changed his mind because I DID ovulate on clomid 100mg so he wants me to try it again. I started sobbing and reminded her that my cycle was a (very typical) 56 days (despite 2 rounds of clomid) and I have a feeling that the Clomid did NOTHING for me, because I had a completely typical cycle for me. And she agreed to try the letrozole instead (as per original plan).
I told her that this would be my “only” IUI cycle if it actually happened and we would be moving on to IVF because I can’t continue this. She reminded me that this is all “trial and error” and that it’s all part of the process and I just have to be patient.
I can’t be patient any more. Every time I get told to “wait” at the RE office or AF or another pregnancy announcement (weekly), it just guts me again and again. Today has been a year and I’m tired of crying (or trying not to cry).
I’ve been following along but trying not to think/comment on TTC for my sanity as I wait for my next IVF cycle. I start Lupron on Friday, and my stims a week after that assuming there’s no baseline fiasco this time;) Good news, I got into a discount program for my Follistim and attempted my first overseas purchase for fertility meds for my Menopur. I’ve been really nervous about it because my doctor wasn’t exactly cool with me getting my meds outside the US. To get around this I requested a physical copy of my Menopur prescription from the nurses and scanned it so I could email it to the pharmacy. Got an email today saying my prescription was approved!! I won’t claim success until I have it in my hands, but assuming this works, I just took my meds from about $5K to about $2K!
On to the next cycle… woke up to CD1. Skipping my beta.. I got all testy about it this morning. My nurse can tack it onto CD3 monitoring if she really feels like it. (see? Sassy..) Going to ask nurse to push up the medicated cycle protocol. Realized we only get 4 more tries so we feel like it’s time.
Miserable outside here today which matches my mood perfectly. Appointment in a few hours. I think I spent most of the weekend crying over everything. Reading about DOR and what dr have told other ladies. I met a nice lady in the states who is my age and also just got the same diagnosis. She’s moving forward with donor eggs. I’m accepting to that but the process is more complex in Canada. I’m calling our local CYFS to start the adoption process (which is also long) depending on how the appointment goes today.
beta #2 was 1777, up from 289 on Friday. Feeling very relieved. 1st ultrasound is one week from today.
I’ll be taking my 4th 100 mg dose of Clomid today. I don’t feel any different at all – perhaps a bit more emotional, but I am just generally more emotional these days so it’s hard to tell whether it’s med related. I am torn between being relieved that I am not experiencing any of the awful symptoms I read about, and worrying that no symptoms means it isn’t working. Ugh.
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