Age (if you care to share): 31; Darling Husband 29
TTC since: Sept 2011; NTNP since May 2009
Issues (if any): PCOS
Chart?: I do but there’s not much to it at the moment. http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/yellowclover
Supplements/how are you going about your BFP: Clomid, GonalF, Ovidrel, Prometrium. Prenatals, VitD 2800iu, CoQ10 100mg, VitC, B50 Complex, Calcium Magnisium Zinc.
When I get my BFP, I’ll celebrate by: In order: Picking myself up off the floor, crying tears of joy, shaking, praising God, screaming for Darling Husband to come look, and breath a huge sigh of relief until all the anxiety starts back up again 😉
If it’s not this cycle, we’ll: We’re going to go back to NTNP for several months
Despite the heartache…what has this infertility journey made you greatful for: I’m grateful for it has strengthened my faith and brought me closer to God. I’m grateful for it has strengthened my relationship with Darling Husband. I’m grateful for the strength it has given me to pick myself up each day and continue on. Finally, I’m thankful for meeting each and every one of you and the friendship I’ve built with several of the ladies from WB.
Just for fun…Which film from your childhood are you most looking forward to sharing with your future children? My favorite is Cinderella, but I’d have to say all the Disney movies from when I was a child. Darling Husband has a whole list and has actually started collecting DVDs of his childhood favorites to share with our babies.
@Novella: Thank you for starting the new thread; I love the roll call questions! I hope the thread starter luck finds you! 🙂
@nyckitten: Ugh!! I’m so, so sorry hun!! I’ve got everything crossed that your beta shows something different! X
@lonsk: So sorry about CD1, but even more happy that you’ll get to start IUI #4!! Woohoo!!! I’ve got everything crossed that this IS it! X
@nyckitten: @Novella: Great idea about the list!
AFM; I had an amazing weekend that I really didn’t want it to end. But here I am back to reality! This morning I woke up at 5am and couldn’t go back to sleep so I decided to test. I really didn’t want to and was honestly so content on just waiting it out, but I figured I might as well take the leap while I’m feeling “okay” about the possibility of a BFN. And…of course a BFN it was. Stark white at that! But, I’m okay! Somewhere after the IUI I had just lost the feeling that this was it, but of course I still tried to stay as positive as I could and keep faith. My anxiety and depression came back and hit hard the weekend before the IUI so I think at this point, it’s probably for the best until I can get myself back on track.
We’re going to go back to NTNP until probably March. I want to ENJOY the upcoming Holidays. I want to enjoy life again. I want to enjoy sex. I want to enjoy my family. We’re going to Disneyworld in March with my parents and nephew. As much as I would have given everything and anything to be pregnant, I would like to enjoy the trip as well. So, I think once we return, we’ll get back on track with IUI and go two more rounds before considering IVF. I really don’t expect ANY of you to be here by then 😉