- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2012
I guess…I don’t really regret it persay..I’m excited, but now I kinda wish I had spared everyone the trouble of inviting them which I feel made alot of people feel obligated and akward around me. People are acting strange…even though I’ve made it clear we don’t expect anyone go come if it’s inconvinient in any way. I don’t think I’d change having it where I”m having it…I just kinda wish we would have done it onour own, with our immediate family…no bridal party, etc.
On of my bm’s lost her job and she’s moping around…and not being involved…and I have another who’s (new fiance’) is now complaining that they have to go…and everyone pretty much just complaining to me about how expensive it is. I never meant to ask anyone to spend money…I invited everyone I love because I wanted them to feel included, I never expected to get this sort of reaction to everything.
It’s making my fiance’ feel real sad too. Also, we have this reception we planned for when we get back. I kinda wish I had never planned it. I did put down a 1k deposit….and I did a sort of STD when I sent out the actualy wedding inviations….it mentioned the hometown reception date…and I know alot of people are looking forward to it since so many can’t come….so even though everything is teling me I should jsut cancel it…I feel like it’s too late.
No one mentions the wedding to me…I feel like they just are avoiding me sometimes. my own dad even. my mom never answers my calls…and she just freaks out if I ask her to help me with anything.
My moh finally booked her trip…shoot, I haven;t even bought my tickets, cuz I’m still on the fence if we can afford a honeymoon. I feel like we took on way too much. I told my parents I didn’t think a reception back home was feasible (from the start) and we should just scratch it, but they felt like it would be worth it so I went for it.
Im also having these nagging worries that no one will show up…some disaster will happen…or that it will be a flop of a wedding and everyone will leave early and also, I’m worried people will be bored or that it will be akward as hell…those who are flying out to be there. I haven’t arranged any activities…and frankly I just can’t….I’d like to come up with some list of things people can do, but I wouldn’t know where to begin. I don’t have a wedding planner and it’s all I can do to even keep my colors and decor straight from here.
Sorry..guess I”m just kinda gettin blue..always happens in the middle of the night on a Monday!
Day after tomorrow will be officially 100 days to go. I was planning on sharing my wedding website on fb (haven’t done it since I first published it a year ago) and starting a “count down” to try and get people excited. I was also going to post some photos of my travels to the place we are getting married…so people can stop visualizing military trucks, cartel, etc, etc.
I hope to somehow update my website with things for people to do there…but honestly I have no idea. Whenever I go there, we just wander around, shop…check out the sights around the city…buy gifts, dine out…have a few drinks sometimes. But mostly we just spend time with our family and sometimes they take us on day trips to places. But this isn’t a beach or touristy type place…it’s just a lovely colonial town with walking streets all through it…gorgeous churches and architeture and interesting places to eat. I just don’t want to feel like I have to entertain people…I mean, we are throwing a party the day after but that’s about it.