- 6 years ago
- Wedding: March 2014
Dear SO and i decided when we began our relationship 3 years ago that we would not have sex but well things got kinda steamy 6 months from then on because we both weren’t virgins and would kiss and touch a lot, this raised familiar feelings of course. i guess it would have been easier if we were both virgins or at least one of us was. i think our other challenge was us not having sex was more of a religious preference than a conviction, this made it a very flimsy decision. Do not ever do something to please other humns, it doesn’t work like that because you will just stumble on even the smallest pebble you encounter.
Anyway after much falling, self condemnation brought upon by the devil:( we learnt to listen to the Holy Spirit’s conviction and renewed our minds and were convicted to do what we consider to be our best decision pertaining to intimacy in our relationship. SO and I haven’t so much as kissed in 18 months and still counting. I know what some of you are thinking, there is nothing wrong with kissing, well for me and SO, we not only put our feet in water we then want to swim in it, go to the deep end, swim across the ocean type thing, and so for us we decided lets actually just stay away from the shore completely,lol. Contrary to popular belief that if you are no longer a virgin you cannot be restored i will tell you this it has been a rewarding journey, i used to listen to virgin girls and watch them in awe and i prayed that God would make me that sweet and innocent, and though i might not physically be so, i am a new creation, i get quite freaked out and am now quite fascinated about sex just like a virgin. Our relationship with God and each other keeps going onto an all new high everyday, its amazing. We look forward to our kiss on our wedding day, we look forward to our honeymoon night in about 6 months to experience the gift of oneness God has blessed married people with.
Our God is the God of restoration and i believe He will bless us with a fulfilling, loving, intimate, secure, passionate marriage. The word says you have not because you ask not. I ask God everyday for a beautiful marriage, I even ask him for the most amazing sex, we think we can’t ask for that because the world has perveted sex, but i say No, sex is holy, an act of worship designed for man and his wife. Why do you think the devil uses it so much?Evil transactions in the spiritual realm are done through sex, it is one of the most powerful acts God ever created, that is why He requires us to do it with one person or else you will be giving your soul to enough the people. A friend of mine gave me an example of a clean paper when you are still a virgin and then as you go along everytime you sleep with someone you punch a hole in the paper. By the time i met SO my sheet of paper was now all crumpled and with many holes:( Is that what i wanted to present to my husband a tattered sheet? And so i traded in that torn sheet for a new clean sheet through deliverance, through renewing my mind, through prayer daily:)
My dear Christian Bees, this is something you’d need to experience personally cause i for one used to be told about the power of waiting and didn’t believe it until i encountered it myself. Please note that this is not in anyway a condemnation to those who didn’t or arent’t waiting…. Condemnation is self inflictated and is directed from the Devil. The Holy Spirit Convicts, He comforts, He loves us all:) Love you all