- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
I am getting married in 28 days and I am all over the place, emotionally. I’ve been like this off and on for the past few months and I am really getting tired of it.
Some days I am so happy and excited and calm about the wedding that I’m crying GOOD tears.
Other days (or sometimes the same day, a few hours later), I’m crying hysterical, awful, stressed, scared tears.
I have a TON of other issues going on right now – job problems, going back to school problems, money issues, mom’s sick, sister moving out of state, weight, birth control issues, anxiety/depression …. the list goes on and on.
Everyone keeps telling me “it’s the wedding. you’ll feel better after the wedding.” And they keep telling me to relax, but I CAN’T. Well, some days I can. Other days I feel like stabbing people.
Is this normal?
Literally one minute I am SO happy and content and loving my life, the next minute I am worried about EVERYTHING, and it’s not just wedding/marriage stuff. It’s every aspect of my life.
I feel like a crazy person.
I do want to get married and love my fiance more than anything (he is so supportive, loving, and patient) but I just want to enjoy these last few weeks of planning/being engaged. And sometimes I do, but other times ….. I feel totally nuts.
Insane. Crazy. Psycho.
Don’t know what’s wrong with me.