- 2 years ago
- Wedding: December 2009
Hang in there! Sending good vibes for you and your baby 🙂
Hang in there! Sending good vibes for you and your baby 🙂
I don’t know why the photo didn’t show up. Trying to post again.
For those of your commenting that bed rest sounds lovely, I can tell you from experience it is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I did 10 weeks of bedrest when I was pregnant with my son and it was AWFUL. Thankfully I went on to deliver full term at 37 weeks 3 days! You got this Momma!
Today marks day 8 of my hospital stay! Yesterday was another hard day. It was all set off by my Fiance getting out of work late on Thursday so I advised him just to spend the night at home cuddling with the puppy girl. I’m sure she’s confused as to where we’ve been. As much as I do want him here all the time, I realize that he needs better rest, driving between work (he’s an in-home sales manager so he drives all over 6 days a week and to the office to run meetings for his team several times a week), home, and to the hospital. He’s been stressed out and has been running himself ragged. After he got home and got in bed, he facetimed me with the pup and I lost it lol. I miss her sooooo much. I really can’t wait to see her. I’m almost afraid that her little heart won’t be able to take the excitement of realizing that I didn’t abandon her.
I get rather overwhelmed with the fact that there’s not always someone here to help me filter through all of the information I get on a daily basis. Since it’s just me most of the time, I have to take what the doctor’s say and repeat it to Fiance, my mom, his mom, my dad, step-mother, Future Sister-In-Law, friends and family who reach out to inquire. It’s hard when you have to keep reliving the same moment over and over again and exhausting when it’s not always great news all the time. I wish that there was some type of buffer but I know everyone is asking out of love and concern so I don’t get upset.
Friday was spent mostly in tears. No bad news though. Baby is perfectly content in the womb right now and scoring well on all of her tests. It’s just a day-by-day adventure until 34 weeks. It was confirmed today that I will not be allowed to carry to 37 weeks because the risk of fetal demise would be increased. I will be given two more beta shots if I make it to 33 weeks to further mature her lungs, brain, and digestive tract. Right now, we’re 31+4 and every day is a new milestone.
I have to say that the nursing staff here has been AMAZING!!!!!!!! Since I’m in the antepartum high risk unit, they usually have a couple of women at a time who are here for long stays so they know how to deal with the sadness that comes along with it. They’ve been coming in and hanging out with me, letting me cry on their shoulders when I need to, educating me on everything I ask about, scolding me when it’s apparent that I’ve been consulting Dr. Google lol. They’re so great. I’ve really got to think of a way to repay them for their tremendous work after I’m out of here.
Today, I feel much better. It’s going to rain all weekend, which actually relaxes me a little. I don’t have FOMO when it rains and the gloominess make the room seem more homey. The rooms in this unit have two beds each, just in case they really fill up but, since I’m here until delivery, they would need to have like a HUGE overflow to put someone in here with me. It’s nice having two beds because Fiance sleeps comfortably in the room with me. I’ve also decorated a bit. Both my mom and Future Mother-In-Law brought blankets so I’ve made up the beds nicely. Today, Fiance left his pants on the floor and picking them up and folding them was literally the best feeling ever, haha! The things we take for granted, right?
I’ve started taking notes on the each day in my phone. I put the names of my daytime and nighttime nurses, who the attending MFM was, how the baby scored on her biophysical profile, whether or not they visualized increased/decreased blood flow, etc. I also jot down any questions I have for them so I remember to ask. Just trying to keep myself organized as much as possible.
Anyway, how is everyone else’s weekend going?
We had a 12 hour flight home from France yesterday morning and I took an aspirin so I didn’t get swollen legs this time! Yay!
I tried to stay up as late as I could since school starts Monday and I wanted to be adjusted to the time change as quickly as possible. I only made it to 6pm. Woke up at 1:30 wide awake. Somehow managed to fall back asleep at 2:30-7:30. Woke up to a gloomy foggy day and I am so happy! The heat in France was just too much.
Now this weekend my plans is I’m going to be in my “favorite position” which is also called “couch time” and involves doing nothing laying on my couch.
Unfortunately we have no food in the house so I have to go get breakfast and then after go grocery shopping and then start planning for the first week of school.
But for now, I’ve got five more minutes of Weddingbee before I am too hungry to stay home.
Keeping our fingers crossed for a healthy (albeit tiny), 34 weeker who doesn’t need to stay very long in the NICU at all. My biggest prayers are, first, that she doesn’t require any respiratory intervention, and secondly, that she latches! Breastfeeding is so important to me, especially now that she’s going to be a little premie peanut. It’s important that she latch because the biophysical feedback will keep my supply strong and allow my body to formulate the milk exactly how she needs it to heal up and come home.
And I wish you the very best of luck in your TTC journey. I’ve struggled with reserving my fertility in the past and I know how daunting things can seem. Please let me know if you’d like to share.
OP, instead of having to repeat the same information to 15 different people, what if you either designate 2-3 people to inform others of medical updates? And just let people know they are still welcome to call you and chat, but for most medical updates, they need to talk to those specific people. Maybe phrase it in terms of you’re trying to eliminate as much stress for you and baby, and this is something that will help with that?
I used to work for a big elevator company and the place was crazy, people were completely miserable, and I traveled all the time. I had to have surgery in December because I had asherman’s syndrome and my cervix had scarred shut from a miscarriage and subsequent D&C in August 2017. During the time of the surgery, I was told I was being relocated to a different state and was treated with such callus that I just quit and never looked back. I had another job offer about 5 hours after quitting (I had already been looking) and have been so much happier and less stressed. I also got pregnant right away in January of this year, after allllll that drama and stress.