- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
My wedding is in 5 months. And I’m really excited and can’t wait for everything to come together but …. I am so tired of planning.
Every night I come home, fire up the computer, look at my “to do” list …. and do nothing. I come on these boards, spend time on Facebook, online shopping …. anything other than wedding planning.
I just can’t seem to make any decisions.
All of the big stuff is done – caterer, venues, guest list, DJ, photographer. And most of that stuff is paid off.
But now that we’re down to the nitty gritty details – flowers, decorations, invitation wording, timelines, (underwear for God’s sake) – I just am so tired of it.
I’m tired of spending hours and hours online, comparing prices, sizes, colors, options. I’m tired of writing checks and putting off buying new clothes and shoes so I can buy stamps and glass candle holders that I’ll never use again.
I’m tired of everyone’s opinions and questions.
I don’t want to be “that girl” who’s like “ohhhh poor me, I’m getting married.” And again, I am still really excited and can’t wait to be married but … I’ve been planning for a year and a half and it’s just getting to me.
Probably doesn’t help that we just closed on our house last Friday and that adds SO much more to the “to do” list. Painting, cleaning, gardening, furniture shopping, registering …. changing my address, packing my crap, hauling my crap …..
I mean, I have 100+ glass candle holders in my garage right now. And every single one of them has a stupid, sticky price tag on them. And somehow I have to spend hours and hours chipping the damn sticker off. I don’t have time for that! And I don’t want to do it! It’s just getting annoying.
I really do want to have a big, traditional wedding, and I know it’s a lot of work and will be worth it in the end but …. I feel guilty and weird for feeling like this and don’t know how to fix it. Especially because I was doing everything with such enthusiasm up until recently.
Is this normal???
Or am I just a horrible person?