Post # 1
So I’m getting married on Thursday – and it’s just hit me how massive this is, don’t get me wrong I’ve never been so sure of anything in my whole life but I’m still scared stiff!
But I’m really scared, scared that my Fiance deserves so much more than I can offer him- what if I’m a bad wife? What if I’m a bad mother? I’m going to be bringing a child into the world and it’ll be mine, I’ll be responsible for bringing him/her up – for making them into a good person – what if I don’t?!
I’m getting married to the nicest, most caring man in the world and I’m not sure he’s getting as good a deal as I am.
What if I destroy things – what if I spoil this amazing man – I can’t stand the idea of loosing him – but I’m terrified of becoming some kind of crazy wife who drives him away.
Sorry for the rant – but I’m sick with terror!!
Post # 3
I’ve read a few of your posts along your journey, and you sound like an interesting chick. I’m finding myself thinking that the only way that your marriage is going to be fully successful is for you to meet and fall in love with Mr. Vicar’s best friend….the BIG GUY… The Creator, The Alpha and Omega, the one that he probably talks about every Sunday…yes I do mean GOD. I’m sitting in my livingroom, and asking HIM to show you why it is that you love that wonderful VICAR. I do believe in the power of prayer, and I’m praying that God will give you peace of mind, and will help you to see that God loves you and will be with you along the way! God bless!
Post # 4
Thanks that really means a lot – I know that I love my Fiance – and I know he loves me back!
What I’m scared of is that I’m not good enough for him – that’ll let him down – both as his wife and as the mother of his child! that’s a massive responsibility – how I behave reflects on him. I always knew that and appreciated how important my role as his wife would be but it’s really just hitting home how much he needs me – and that scares me – I’m a nurse and I can cope with and even relish responsibility but the idea of my FI’s calling coming into question because of me – is scary!!
Thanks for your support, I have only prayed once in my life – on the day my great grandmother died and I was praying and begging to any one and every one that she wouldn’t die in pain and that she would be safe. I don’t know why I prayed but on that night I was desperate and needed to feel that I could help and that whatever happened she would be safe.
Thank you for your words!
Post # 5
I’m glad you have had the opportunity to to pray before… that sounds like a scary day! I hope that God gave you comfort about that experience… I know that marriage and motherhood are two giant leaps, but I know that God is going to be with you. He created you to fall in love with Mr. Vicar, and He knows the love that’s in your heart! I only know you from a name on the bee pages, but tonight I feel like God wanted me to see your name on the post and to look at what was happening to you! God does love you… You can trust him with your hopes, joys, and fears. I’ll keep you in my prayers this week. Don’t be afraid to trust God with your life. I know that sounds really weird coming from a stranger on the web, but I know the God your beloved Vicar serves, and I have been amazed in the way that HE has worked in my life! Don’t be afraid… just pray and the One who hears all the prayers in the universe will hear your cry and be with you.
Post # 6
Thank you again! – that really means a lot!
Post # 7
I think that you are scared because you care, and you truly love the man that you about to marry. If you didn’t care and love sooo deeply, you would probably not feel this way. I’ve been married to my wonderful husband for nearly 30 years, and there are still times that I feel that maybe I’m not good enough for him. But God has kept us together all these years. And as far as being a mother-I got pregnant just 4 months after we got married, and was so scared, I told him I wanted puppies instead-I mean-after all, I know how to take care of puppies! With babies, you don’t get any instructions attached, but you do your best. You can never do better than your best. Some days you can do better than others, other days your best at that time is not very good, but forgive yourself when you are at the end of that rope and hold on. Do what you think is most important for your children, say prayers for your family, and know that you can’t be perfect. As your children grow, pick the important battles, teach them how to love others by example and the values that you and your husband think are most important, and remember that you are only human. 🙂