- 10 years ago
- Wedding: June 2009
Uhm, hi…I have a confession to make.
The dress I ordered, yes the wedding dress I ordered back in September, well I haven’t been feeling her lately. I mean besides her being in Spain and me in California, I mean emotionally we have just drifted apart. And I have even started to resent certain things about her (long train, she’s heavy, not really ivory..more white). So much so, that I let my eyes wander. I kept telling myself, I was just looking, I was already happily attached. And for months that was ok, I could swoon at a gorgeous specimen but I held strong to my "Spanish dress" That is…until this week…
You see, I had a love before my Spaniard dress, it was a quick and torrid love affair. She was from classy lineage, with perfect ivory complexion and looks that many others coveted. I was instantly in love. But then, after such a short time, she slipped from my hands as I could not afford her expensive lifestyle. *sigh*
As my addiction to "window shopping" grew, I suddendly stumbled upon her loveliness again. There she was, a barely used sample, in fabulous condition but she held a little wear from being tossed aside a couple times. Relationships do that to you, fray your edges a bit. Within a day, I rushed to her side to see her in person and to my surpise we once again clicked. She was as gorgeous as ever and she still made me blush when I was next to her. Within 20 minutes I asked her to be mine, paid the matchmaker (at a 40% from retail) and whisked her home, singing the entire time.
There I have said it, I have cheated on my Spaniard dress and don’t think I can go back…matter of fact I know that I can’t. But how do I tell her and where will she live once she moves here from Spain? Will I be able to recoup her costs? Am I a bad bride in replacing her with my first true love-a little tattered but still just as gorgeous? I hope my Spaniard will find a new love, someone who wont turn cold on her as I did.
(thanks for letting me make my confession hive, now I have to tell my FI)