- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2016
Hope you all are doing well on your TTC journey! I was here last month after 14 cycles of TTC # 1 and got a faint bfp at 10dpo and a darker one at 12 dpo, and the darkest at 14dpo. I was so so happy. I could not believe it.
Well, about 5 days later a couple of days after my missed period I stopped “feeling pregnant” if that makes any sense. I noticed I was spotting a little and cramping and just felt like something was wrong. I tested only to see that the lines were not getting darker and were very faint. I went and had my betas tested just to be sure and sure enough, they came back so low that I wasn’t even considered pregnant. My dr. basically wrote me off saying I was never pregnant to begin with like it was no big deal and to try again next month.
But in my heart, I know the truth. I had a chemical pregnancy.
I was gutted. I mean, to finally concieve after 14 months is a good sign, at least we finally know we can. But it still shatters my heart to think of what could have been.
So here I am a month later, about 3 days before AF is due. I am terrified to symptom spot or test, so I’m just kind of waiting. Seeing all the pregant women and mommas everywhere, I just can’t handle it. Ugh.
Thanks for listening <3