- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
First off I want to apologize–I’ve started a few topics lately that I haven’t been able to follow up on, and for that I want to say sorry. I would love to participate in my own threads more but well, my job is a nightmare and keeps me ass kickingly busy for 10 hours a day.
The long and short of it that two months ago I left my lovely, boring, stable job of a year to come to a more “glamourous” position at a cooler firm downtown. I hate it here. It’s a nightmare–my bosses are crazy, the work load is epic, and the culture is clique-y and ridiculous.
Wah wah, how does this relate to my engagement? Well, one of my bosses (the extra clique-y) one sent me an email yesterday–yes, on a Sunday–asking me to set up this cryptic meeting to discuss “how we’re doing working together”. He also invited my other boss. It’s on Wednesday late in the day, since they are both traveling until then.
I wrote him an email asking if he’d like me to prepare anything/ what exactly he planned to discuss, but I haven’t heard back.
After all, if it’s just a harmless meeting how hard would it have been for him to say “I want to just touch base and catch up on how things are going since we haven’t had a chance since you started.”
Here’s the kicker–I’m 99.99% sure I’m getting engaged tomorrow (Tuesday) night. This is due to my knowing the ring is arriving tomorrow, and my boyfriend saying I have to meet him at our favorite restaurant at 7, not to be late….very exciting stuff.
But now I have a stomach ache about this meeting. It’s really sullying my ability to look at this week as an exciting, celebratory time. Now I just picture myself wearing my new ring for the first time in this horrible scary meeting with my two horrible, scary bosses. At this horrible, stressful job.
I guess there’s nothing more to be said, I just wanted to snivel a little. I feel like there’s a darkness surrounding my excitement now, and it’s pissing me off to no end. I want to throw it all away and go work in a flower shop. This is supposed to be one of the most exciting events of my life and now all I feel about this week is stress and dread.