- 4 years ago
First off, yay!! First post post-marriage!
Second… ugh. This is a little long… I’ve certainly had an adventure trying to figure out “what to do with my life”. I was in undergrad for Communication Disorders, didn’t want to go to speech path school at my undergrad location, awful administration. Found a Deaf Education program, said I would educate parents, work with kids, could work in a range of locations such as schools, hospitals, private practace, etc etc… sounded really neat. I liked the early intervention part of it… a few people I talked were were like, “No, those are teachers of the deaf”, and I’m like, “No… it’s… different.” I NEVER wanted to be a straight up teacher.
Well, surprise!! As this year in grad school has progressed, it’s revealed that yes, you can only work in a school and it’s for teaching. I’ve been in denial for months, trying to convince myself I enjoy teaching. I love the subject matter, helping people, etc. I’ve done great until all the practicums started up… I hate them. I hate lesson planning, I hate the idea of having to put hours and hours of planning and thought into one hour of teaching. I never wanted to teach. But, I’ve tried to convince myself because that’s what I’m “supposed to do”. Everyone who takes the program does student teaching, gets a teaching job. Boom. Nope.
I finally broke on Friday night, realized what I want and don’t want for my life, what I want in a job, what I don’t want. I couldn’t get a real teaching job in my area anyway because there are none, I’d have to move and DH and I just signed a lease and got married in March so we don’t want to move anytime soon. So I made a call, skipped graduation (we technically don’t graduate until after the summer semester anyway) and started applying to jobs that sounded better to me…
I’ve applied to academic advisor-type jobs at local universities, administrative assistant jobs, and even a really cool I’m totally unqualified for job that coordinates disability services, admissions, financial aid, etc for students who are disabled at a local university. I love working with that demographic and helping, but… ugh, teaching. I need something more concrete, at least a little more concrete. I’m an enigma, both right and left brained. I’ve made the mistake before, thinking about a more right-brained career…. like graphic design. I can’t be right-brained under pressure… teaching is too “right-brained under pressure” and I can’t stand it. I need at least a little more black and white, cut and dry.
I don’t know what I’ll end up getting or how much I will enjoy it but I think It’s a step in the right direction and I feel so freed due to just making a decision and being confident about it.
Thanks for the vent! If anyone has any ideas, opinions, or suggestions of other related jobs I could try and apply for I’m all ears 😉 Also, if anyone has been through the same thing before, let me know how your career change went!! I think my advisor might die when I tell her not to sign me up for student teaching!