- 6 years ago
I just finished a PhD and am struggling majorly – the fact that I don’t know what I want to do as academia hasn’t proven particularly satisfying doesn’t help I guess. I wake up every morning cursing the recession and cuts, cursing the increasing venom in the snake pit that is academia (the competition for positions and grants is ever increasing) and dreading getting into my office. I’m currently ’employed’ as a research associate (i.e. whenever my supervisor has some project work that needs to be done I can afford my rent) and just bumbling along wondering what to do next. My Fiance just got a 1-year lectureship which is fantastic but it’s too far away to commute and I’ll be on my own a couple of days a week at least. I’ve been applying for jobs as well but just not really getting anywhere, to the point where the number of applications I’m putting in is dwindling rapidly as I just don’t have the energy anymore to continue.
My supervisor sent me a scathing review about a paper I revised and now I don’t even feel competent or liked anymore. I just don’t know what to do anymore and I’ve been avoiding the issue by doing a lot of wedding planning while feeling that pit in my stomach grow and grow every day. Are there any other bees out there who are in the same position?