- 8 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
i’ve known for awhile that i wanted my one friend, we’ll call her A, as my Maid/Matron of Honor….i’ve known her since the 9th grade, even tho our friendship has been rocky at some points, and non-existant at others not cuz of anything bad but just cuz life got in the way….anyways, long story short we’ve grown closer again in the last 3 years and i consider her my best friend, the closest of all my friends really…..
then there’s my other close friend, we’ll call her B….i’ve known her since about 7-8th grade though we didn’t become best friends til 10th-11th….after high school, we weren’t as close as me and A were, and we also had those periods of time where life got in the way…..in June she got married, i was a bridesmaid….
other than A and B….i feel like i really don’t have any other close friends…. i do hang out with a bunch of different people but when i really sit and think about it, i’m not sure if i would choose any of them to stand by me only cuz i feel like we aren’t really really close….another thing i’m worried about is bridesmaid drama and some of these girls’ personalities would definitely clash wit each other…. i feel like i should ask my sister but to be honest, i wouldn’t say i’m extremely close to her either…..
now, when i think about it, i wouldn’t mind having only 2 girls, and 3 is my favorite number anyways so 3 girls (i’m including myself) and 3 guys (including groom) is close to perfect for me….so why am i afraid of my choices???
both A and B have strong personalities…..A has her own life and stress and definitely has been a bit off in the last few months because of it…and i know the wedding isn’t until 2 yrs but i’m just afraid that her stress will get in the way of helping me when i need it… and i’m not trying to sound selfish about that, just trying to prepare myself i guess…. and then B is straightforward and bold….i know she’ll be there for me like i was there for her but i dont feel close enough to her like i do with A for me to ask her to be Maid/Matron of Honor instead…..i guess an easy solution would be to have A be maid of honor and B be matron of honor since she is married, but then the thing i’m afraid of with that is that i could see them both clashing at who does what and whatnot….anyways…i think i’m just paranoid and thinking to far into it and need a cyber *snap* out of it… lmao…
thanks for listening … sry this turned out long…