- 10 years ago
- Wedding: December 2011
Oh bees. I’m trying not to wail too much at Fiance, so instead I will wail to you.
I am three months into a new job (I posted about it before in the hive I think). It’s horrible. It’s better than it was but I still SUCK at my work. The people who are supposed to be my trainers are incredibly rude and mean. I actually mentioned it to the HR person who did my sixty day review, and the meanness has scaled back quite a bit, but it’s still there.
It’s a customer service job, and I don’t mean to sound like a biaaatch, but when I look around me I can’t understand why my co-workers get it and I don’t. I’m college educated and I just took it in order to have a steady paycheck while I figure out the rest of my life. I mean I’m fairly intelligent. I think. I thought.
There are so many situations where I still just don’t know what to say to the customer. If I ask too many questions I start getting funny looks. Today the chief trainer lady told me that the next three weeks I need to hit all my standards with the goal being to move out to the floor by then. Some days I feel like I know what I’m doing, other days… like today… I feel hopeless.
I’m so stressed out and I cry in my car before I go into the office. I refuse to quit because I have never quit a job before (without having one lined up) and I don’t want to let this job beat me. I don’t know what to do. I have applied for a few other jobs but I’m also scared to take them because now I wonder if they’ll all be like this… if there’s something wrong with me and I just can’t do ANY job. I know that’s not true because before this I was very successful at a very good company for 3+ years. But it’s like my confidence has been sucked out of me.
The economy is so bad and it scares me. What if I get fired from this job for being basically incompetant? I’ll be basically unemployable won’t I (leaving a job after 3-4 months)? I could handle being told I am lousy if they would just do it in a respectful way but I know the news would be delivered With Attitude. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know what advice anybody can give me. I guess I’m just venting.