- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
So my fiance and I just bought a house back in May after YEARS of saving and struggling and living with our parents.
We knew things were going to be tight, especially with our wedding coming up in 3 weeks but …. I didn’t know it would be this tough.
We have enough to pay our bills. But that’s about it. Sometimes we really scrape the bottom of the barrell just to get groceries.
I feel …. awful. Like …. trashy. I feel really bad for saying that but …. I don’t know.
We live in an awesome, old house in an average neighborhood. But there are some “undersirable” section 8 apartments nearby and there’s a trouble bar down the street from us where someone got robbed last night and I feel so embarassed.
Like…. this is all I’m good for. Like I’m not doing well enough for myself.
I’m not trying to be snobby or anything. I know we don’t make a ton of money (we’re working on improving that), but I just didn’t think things would be this bad.
The thing is, I don’t have a car payment and my fiance will pay his car off in a few months, so that’s good. Neither one of us has student loans right now (that will probably change soon).
We have some credit card debt, but nothing huge …. until recently when I realized that we would have to put, like, the last $1000 of the wedding (decor, invitations, favors) on a credit card. Sigh. I did NOT want things to be like this and I feel really dumb for thinking it would be easier.
I thought we had enough “wiggle room” when we drew up a budget when we started looking for houses but. …. I don’t know.
The thing that scares me is that the house we bought was like $30,000 under our budget. And we’re still struggling.
Everyone keeps telling us it’ll get better, but I just don’t know how. We need to go back to school before we can get better paying jobs, and that’ll take years. And I feel like things will get worse before they get better.
I’m just constantly worried about money. Constantly crunching numbers. Constantly feeling like I’m/we’re not good enough. Like we failed.
I don’t know how to get myself out of this funk.