- 7 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
So I recently became engaged (go Team Johnson!) and I’m super excited just to be engaged for right now. The wedding isn’t until May 2012 and we can’t even start paying for things until February, so Mr. J and I decided to wait until then to really start the planning and just enjoy this stage of our relationship…
Apparently, I need to send a memo to my roommate because she has ALREADY gone into a wedding dress shop, spoke to the owner, and looked at WEDDING dresses for ME. Um… I thought that was my part being as I’m gonna be the one actually wearing the dress. I haven’t even been engaged long enough to ask her to be my bridesmaid but even if I did, look for your dress and leave mine alone.
Her mom used to own a dress shop so she thinks she knows what I want and I’m glad that she’s excited for me, but I felt somewhat violated in a way. Even when I spoke to her about it, she just looked at me like I was crazy and said that I can’t wait too long or the dress I want will be gone… but she can respect my wishes. I’ll be damned if I’m gonna put up with this mess for a year and half, and I don’t want to pull my “it’s about me” card, but I just might need to a few times.
Another issue is that I’ve had a huge falling out with my sister a week before I became engaged and I’m still hurting pretty bad over what happened. We are on the same cell phone account and I told her about her bill and she blew up, cussed me out and when I finally met up with her, she started hitting me until I threatened to call the police. We’ve had many issues over the years and she literally needs meds for bipolar but refuses to take them, but I still wanted her to be a part of my wedding. The thing that hurts the most is that she doesn’t talk to me, hasn’t even looked at me because I “disrespected her by telling her information when she didn’t ask”. But she won’t tell me that of course, she said it through my mother.
I’ve put up boundaries to keep my sanity and I’ve come to grips with the fact that we probably won’t have a relationship unless a miracle happens and she either gets on her meds or counseling or both. but it still tears me up, because even after all that, I want my sister to be a part of this whole wedding process and it’s looking like she won’t be.
anyway, I’m still just so grateful that I do have a wonderful set of friends and a fiancée that I’m terribly devoted to, so I’ll try to focus on the things I have and not on what I don’t. I don’t know if my post makes any sense, my brain is all jumbled up right now so please forgive me