- 7 years ago
Sorry this is wordy, I tend to ramble.
Okay, so I’m not even sure I’ve actually reached the point of being a “waiting bee”, but I’m definitely getting envious of other engaged girls. My bf and I haven’t quite been dating for a full year, though we were good friends for a while before our real first date. We are together or talk everyday, rarely even disagree let alone argue, and are at that point where we are completely content to just be around eachother without having to fill every second with chitchat or activity for fear of awkward silences. I’m sure he hasn’t so much as thought about marriage, let alone proposing or ring shopping, but I’ve known for awhile that he is the one (it literally just “clicked” in my head one day). Since then, I’ve had all things wedding on the brain and have been stalking this website, lol.
Now, he and I haven’t really talked about marriage at all outside of occasional random comments by either of us about things we’ll do “one day”. So, I know I’m probably not really waiting, but it feels like I am because I’m ready to go, if that makes any sense, lol. Because of that, now I feel a little envious everytime I know someone who gets engaged, especially if it was very quick. I’m VERY happy for them, of course, and wish them all the best, but a tiny (but growing) part of me is saying, “Hey, what about me, I’m ready, too!”
A perfect example is the engagement I heard about a few days ago. She’s a friend of mine who got pregnant on a one night stand with a guy she met that night(5/6 months ago). Since then, both of them have been dating other people and have only talked because of the paternity test after her amnio. When the test showed he was the father(last week), he asked her if she felt like getting married, she asked what his last name was, and they’re getting married this Friday. I told her congratulations and how happy I was for her that she was getting married and starting a family. Then, I went home and cried.
Have I gone completely nuts, or have/do other waiting girls feel just a little bitter and maybe a lot sad everytime someone else gets engaged/married? Even if you haven’t been waiting long?